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And I did feel the same way you did, as reading from all your posts. I read too much into actions and every single details I over analyzed everything. I even ran away 6000 miles away
Hello Penelope,
I kinda saw myself in your story exactly. What is his zodiac sign, may I ask ? I know you can’t really tell about someone with their sign but again…just wondering. Is he a scorpio
@Kevin hi, can I have @Finntoga s email address?
If its not happening, its just not going to happen and face with the fact other then pushing it right, we are not on the same page so how to accept it the bitter truth for real? I’m being overwhelming I guess :S
I just better do one day at a time right, with no ever checking anything about him, his fb etc..
I will try veeery hard this time to get over with him and move on with my life without him..What I feel that the right thing to do is forgetting him for real, cuz I know why hes sending me those messages just cuz he is so very curious about how and what I’m doing, did I settle here for good or find a job, meeting new people etc, its just his curiosity. And him wanting to visit me is just about that he wants a change, a get away its not about seeing me. I say these things and then the funny thing is that I still have deep feelings for him, this cant be love right? At the same time I hate him for how he behaved to me, how he didnt care at all, how he still acting selfishly and at the same time telling me he still has feeling for me…you know sometimes I’m so messed up in my mind when I come to think of all these, they all get mixed..
The question is how to forget him, how not to check his fb and other things(just this passed sunday a girl has tagged him riding bcycles together with one another girl after sending me those blaming messages), its really hard. How you managed ? I really do want to get over him for good eventhough I love him and want to share the rest of my life with :/ maybe I’m just obssessed with him, he turned me out to someone else yucky, I feel incomplete and as if somethings missing when I imagine and think hes never gonna be in my life anymore. How to deal with all these and get over with these thoughts..
I have told him a little about how he made me feel and he has said hes sorry and he didnt mean to do that do this but he did the same things over anyway, hes not mature enough sometimes but sometimes way so mature.
I dont want him to visit me all the way just like that you know, visiting me for what ? As a friend just like that.
And you giving your precious time to me is… just dont know what to say…not much people really do care about one another this sincerely @FinntogaIts very late here, going to sleep now. @Finntoga thanks a lot again for your precious care! You have a great day
I just cant believe how come he says that he wants to visit me here, just a nice and different option for him to spend his holiday with the cover up saying he wants to see me, its like an insult to me…then I went on like talking to myself ”go find a girl and spend your friggin holiday somewhere anywhere else but not here with me”
Thinking about all these, I better never give in in any wayYea you feel my situation quite well…I myself just holding upto the hope cuz hes wrote me you know but when you get all those messages put together it doesnt say much at all in fact, I just have to accept the truth that nothing is gonna happen and just continue with this new start yea…it just hurts so deep I cant explain with words
This is my fourth week at work and meeting new people at work but I kinda keep my distance from them for now, a friend of mine found me a place to stay..so sharing the house with this lady and her little daughter..things are okay, still there is alot to do its not gonna be easy and yes I need to be patient
You’re just awesome really, I do appreciate your prompt response eventhough you’re at work…it does mean a lot to me! And I have thought about just answering as I’m doing okay to be honest cuz he insisted much but then I thought he will try to get more like before he did and nothing gonna happen except I might feel worse so thats why I didnt even let him know I’m allright.
I dont know if I would be willing to continue a relationship without him proposing to me for few more years cuz its just upto his behaviors, before I felt like as if he didnt want people around him know us together and to him only his parents know about us is enough…the thing is he didnt embrace me completely you know what I mean then the marriage issue would not been that matter, briefly he didnt give me that feeling that I’m important for him and he does really care about me…now hes saying in his messages that I choked him with me keep bringing up the marriage thing, blaming me but still he cant forget about me and let me go and he hates himself about still wanting to talk to me eventhough I made him feel bad and turned his life upside down, and still writing to me but I’m not bothering to answer…but he is not even aware of it that he made me feel useless and didnt even care about how I felt when he didnt show his love bravely, fearlessly you know what I mean..that he only thought of himself and didnt do anything when I said I’m going so far…now hes writing as if nothing happened and even blaming me because I dont answer…it cant be love…you cant love someone just with words only, you gotta do the things you are saying, I didnt show my love with words only I had moved to his city and got a job just to be with him I ruined my life just to be together with him but he was dissatisfied all the time…now hes writing to me all those empty words selfishly…sigh @FinntogaJust like you said, we so badly want to keep the hope and hang on to love we felt…I’m just hoping there somebody will show up and make me forget him!!! (even saying this making my heart ache a little..) anyway just letting it out
He sent me messages until this passed Saturday or maybe Sunday, I deleted them all and didnt answer any of them. He was saying he wanted to visit me 10 days later if I want, in the last messages he started blaming me about our break up and he was kinda upset that I don’t answer him that hes really worried if I’m okay and everything is allright with me and if I’m happy…I know he just wants to visit me cuz he gets two weeks off every 3 months at this job and he just wants a change and travel somewhere he never been to I guess maybe its not about seeing me only, how sad..anyway he stopped messaging for 3 days now I think. How to end him in my mind and heart, what to do…I still check his fb and sometimes I just miss him so very bad…hes just not in love with me at all otherwise he would just fly up here right away or do and show things to get me beside him anyway, its just empty words hes writing to me all empty words only same as before, hes just curious about whats going on with me I think thats about it…curiosity kill the cat! nothing more no love at all..whatever :/ @Finntoga
