Thanks @loreley, I’ve been so fixtated on him that I was losing myself. I am on 4 day on NC again and trying very hard this time whilst looking after myself and getting out with friends.
That’s good! And when you are there you can focus mainly on you which is most important. And also I think you should delete her Instagram and other social media sites.
I would start the NC of 30 days again, if you feel she will mess with your head and heart and don’t feel she is being sincere let her come to you and express what she wants, you have done brilliantly so far