Hang on sweetie! I know you feel horrible about that. NC is hard especially in first few weeks.. But youll get used, believe me. During this time, yes try to go out – have fun, see new things, improve ourselves to be much netter, fix your drinking habit π try to find new hobbies, expand social circles. Just try to distract yourself as much as you could. And oneday everything will just feel naturally then. You can decide later after 30-60 days of NC whether you want your ex back or not. At least try to focus on yourself. How to be happy. With or without him. It might sound nonsense now. But it will get better. I am now facing 9 weeks after broke up, I am the dumper. I decided to move on. I just want to tell you, that NC has worked although we’re not together anymore. Good luck!