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OK so I’ve made a decision to go home for the weekend and I won’t call to my ex but I’ll go to a pub near his place and I might bump into him accidentally on purpose…

Rihanna – How are you, what’s going on with your ex?

Sunnyinthegarden – I think you should go to see him (because that’s what I’m doing too) but is there anywhere you can see him casually like an event or exhibition so he won’t think you’re there especially for him?

Dara – I don’t know what the email regarding photo sharing is about… But I do have photos in my albums, can you see them? I don’t really know how to use fb so I don’t know what people can see and what they can’t but I thought my friends could ‘see’ everything…

Good idea about not keeping the phone near me when I’m drinking. After 5 months of NC I hope I didn’t do something to screw it all up…

Ok so on Thursday night myself and my house mate got really really REALLY drunk and at 4am I rang my ex from my house mate’s phone. We talked for about 20-30 minutes and it was a really good conversation, laughing and joking like old times.

I told him about a mutual friend of ours (male) who asked me to move to OZ to be with him, and he asked if I was going to go and I said I haven’t made a decision yet (I don’t want to go but I pretended to be considering it) and he sounded jealous. I casually told him all about my new friends and dates I’ve been on here and he sounded a bit jealous then too… I told him all about these exciting things I’m doing – starting a blog and writing a book (drunken ideas are the best!) and we had a really good funny conversation.

Anyway at the end of the conversation I told him he and his mate could crash in my place tonight – Saturday – (in the living room, as a friend, NO funny business) if he needed somewhere to stay because there’s a big match on here tomorrow. He said he’d ask his mate if he wanted to go to the match and if their going, they would stay with me and get me a ticket too. I said I’m really happy we can be friends again and he said that it makes him happy too.

Fast forward to today and I texted him to ask if he needed a place to stay tonight before the big match tomorrow and he didn’t reply so a couple of hours later I tried to ring him but he didn’t answer… What the fuck is going on???? I thought we were friends again but straight back to him ignoring my calls / texts!!!

To make matters worse my house mate deleted all the outgoing calls from his phone and he doesn’t remember me ringing my ex so now I’m wondering did I imagine the whole thing? Is it possible that I imagined a whole conversation with him?

Dara – there’s millions of pictures in my albums on fb 😉

A.Z – You’re living the dream right now, two good men to choose from… I’d love just one 🙁

Rihanna – Maybe try the best of both worlds, don’t ring him tomorrow to see how the big day went for him but give it another day and ring / text him on Monday. That way you’ll be giving him an opportunity to contact you first…

Hi Joe,

It’s all very complicated with us but I’ll try to explain briefly…

We were together for less than a year the last time we were together, but we’ve been best friends since we were kids. We were together in our late teens but then I left the country and about 8 years later we were together again for a year but he had to leave so we were in a long distance relationship for nearly 3 years where we didn’t see each other at all and just spoke / wrote to each other all the time. We finally got together again this last time and we were going to get married until I had to move to another city for work (3 years ago).

The reason I waited until 4 months to send the letter is that I acted crazy for months so I think he needed that time away from me. We hadn’t seen each other for 2 years (because I moved to the cty for work) and only reconnected last august and then I spent months annoying him and acting all clingy all the time (really unlike me). I started NC in April because we had another argument via text.

You guys, I made a major fuck up!

He didn’t reply to the text so last night at midnight (in my drunken state) I phoned him and HE ANSWERED but I got such a shock I didn’t say anything! My mind went blank and I bottled it. He kept saying ‘hello?’ ‘hello?’ ‘hello?’ and I couldn’t think of anything natural to say so I hung-up…

God that was a perfect opportunity and I messed it up because that’s the first time he’s answered the phone since I started acting crazy.

Do you think it was a good thing that he even answered? Where do I go from here???

I sent it…

I’m thinking of sending this text ‘OMG I just saw something that totally reminded me of you – so random!!! It put a smile on my face though :-)’

What do you think?