Im fairly sure im on the wrong site to express this now. But i originally did want her. So i dont want anybody to say she didn’t deserve it. Or she doesnt deserve suffering. I suffered more than you can imagine. My friends betrayed me. All of them. I was left with nothing. I started out again from scratch. They humiliated me. Telling me im no longer sane. I wasnt before. But now still they say so. They lie about what i do. They insult me. They look at me with such disdain and i look at them with respect. Fair? Yeah sure.