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  • #58029
    Peachy
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    Its a shame that you try your best but still get nothing in return. It sounds like your coming to terms with it and are looking at the bright side of things. I’m sure she’ll regret it especially when you are no longer there.

    #58038
    Night
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    Its a real damn shame. Proving to her I’m worth everything she said I wasn’t was the biggest waste of time in my life. It was as if I was only there to prove myself “too bad for you, our choices have bad sides too” I was really nice to her. I never hit her physically. I never yelled at her. We had arguements but that never made me love her less. Our arguements were mostly “why’d you text that guy?” Well eventually it came true. A real shame that karma’s gonna be a bitch to her. Lol. Just a joke tho but if she deserves it make it full force. :)well i have come to terms with it. I think of it most of the time but weird thing is it doesnt hurt as much anymore.

    #58039
    Night
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    I want to thank you too peachy. It somehow distracted you from your problem. Even for a little bit. I haven’t exactly talked to anybody about my problem anymore. It feels like everyone in her life is against me. I feel like I’m at odds here.

    #58040
    Peachy
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    No problem I’m here to lend an ear. I know how hard it is going through this and not having anyone to talk to. I myself am having a really bad night. I feel so mad and hurt that I don’t know what to do. I just want to cry until I can’t anymore. I found out he’s at a work party right now and it’s usually a big to do. Black tie and everything. I had been asking him since a little before Dec when they were going to have the party but he kept saying he didn’t know. I feel betrayed and it makes me think he’s with someone else. My friends tell me to move on and to stop holding onto something that’s not there anymore. I’m so dumb that I refuse to accept that. I’m a mess right now and full of anger.

    #58042
    Night
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    I feel betrayed too. I know the feeling all too well. 1 week then poof. Gone from my life. Well wow. Anger for now is your friend. Bitterness? Totally justifiable. Man if I knew she was like this I wouldn’t have trusted her so much.

    #58043
    Night
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    We all are a mess but did we take the easy way out? No! Why because we are fighters. Lovers are fighters. They fight for what they believe in. Love is powerful. Hate is also powerful but we’ll eventually forgive.

    #58044
    Peachy
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    You know that no matter what happened in the past you always give the benefit of the doubt to a new person and give your trust. Except you end up getting hurt and with each person that does that you loose a bit of yourself till you have nothing left to give. Or very little left that you don’t know who you are anymore.

    #58045
    Peachy
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    All I know is that whatever ounce of hope I have is slowly fading away

    #58046
    Night
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    Hey hey hey. I know that feeling. But everytime i wake up i realize this is something out of our hands. A trial to make us a better person. Trust? I’d rather have rationality that trust. Trusting is blind faith. The next person may come to love. Good for you to think that way. For me well not so great. Hahaha too much bitterness.

    #58047
    Peachy
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    I think eventually I’ll get to the bitterness stage. I’m still at the hurt and anger stage. At least I have you to talk to. It actually makes me feel a little better

    #58048
    Night
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    Talking to me? Well if getting over the person means us being bitter then I guess its fine. For me tho you shouldn’t be angry or bitter. Im used to being bitter and angry. You shouldn’t become like me trust me. It’s like a masochist going to a boxing gym yelling i hate you all. Hahahahah

    #58049
    Peachy
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    Haha. I think I hold a lot of resentment and held on to a lot of hurt and emotional trauma that made me carry it over to this last relationship. So I guess in a way I was bitter too.

    #58050
    Night
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    Well can’t beat that comeback. Well mine was kind of like that. 2 consecutive break ups before her. The problems kick in. The good thig about it was the first 2 break ups were 1-3 days old relationship. So pretty much null and not valid. So when it came to her i had alot of issues but i loved her with all my heart. 🙂 but now pretty much a tragedy a real tragedy.

    #58051
    Peachy
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    The good thing is that your tried and as for the few day relationship you didn’t have to go through more heartache. Mine lasted for several of years. Half a decade of cheating after cheating and lying. That definitely did a number on me. Which made me have a very low self esteem. Which I already had to begin with but that just added to it.

    #58052
    Night
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    Low self esteem… how old are you? You should be proud of yourself. You have the courage to face life head on. That’s self esteem. Its not about being popular or something. Hey im popular in my place but that doesnt mean everyone likes me.

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