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Just find out he is shopping with her and has dinner with her 🙁 they update in social media together. It hurts me a lot. Feel like i want to cry. So much
Ohman really? sigh, seem like they have a great time together, it must be hard for you to know that.. but girl u know, this is the time for you to do the best for yourself and on yourself… :/ maybe he thinks u dont want to talk to him.. or idk… awwhh it really has to be painful for you … the one you love and he loved you back..loving that girl now…. but maybe it wont be always so beautiful betwen them…maybe he is kinda disappointed u didnt tex him back..but thats ok, he will maybe reach out again..
you are one day ahead of me of NC… im giving up . idkk if i wont send him a text today or tommorow. i cant bare seeing him and seeing him drive by, like nothing. i dont want him to move one, not like that without me.i think i will write him, what else should i do…i will loose him completly and for ever if i dont do smthn…… i need him to know he is important.ot he will think i dont care… he tries so so hard to get over me and move on… i feel pathetic. tommorrow is middle NC period. idk if i can make it he will forget about my existence i fear.. that such a big fear… but he also sees me everyday…
Are u trying to improve yourself at the same time? If u dont improve urself, do something fun and interesting and keep busy, how u supposed to face him? U said u will lose him forever if u dont do something. Then, do something on urself first. He is alone still u have chance. U need to prove that to him that u r not miserable or skinny or aad as he thought. Rght now he will think u negatively even he cares. What u need to do is reverse what he expect about u right now. If u still want to text him maybe another week. Right now u r in 12 days nc right? Wait until 7 days more. U can see “rewind relationship” example of text rhat u can use. U need to know what ur stage first. I think u r in deaths door stage since he is totally ignore and move on and pissed of with u. There is an example of text rhat u can use to him
Yea they had great time. I also found out rhat he massaged her head because she gor bad headache. Wow. I cant stop crying like serioucly i cant. Yes someone i love and now he loves someone else. Really? Not always beautiful? I dont think so. She always be with him until late night. Sigh. Yah i also believed that he might be dissapointed that i didnt text him back. He will definately say that “i text her already but she is the one who doesnt want to reply back” i feel like he will totally blame me because i did the nc thing. Thats why om scared. I try to reach him after 19-21 days of nc
@aryyan: ya i am improvig myself… and keeping myself busy im barely at home tbh.. but still, idk if he is pissed at me, there is no real reason why.. i didnt cry i didnt beg i didnt do anything that would piss him off, i just said that im a mess cause he broke up with me.. thats all… and after tat he even came to pick me up at the mental hospital at 00.00 tho he had work next day, he was already at home and still came to pick me up tho he broke up.. he told me i am a really cool girl, with issues i need to work on and he cant be with someone that he is miserable with. actually he wouldnt dump me if i wouldnt be sending texts like i am sorry for my behaviour etc etc… and tht it wont happen again.. before that he said that the last time he said “i love you” he faked it…i told him, then why u said before that u wouldnt break up if it werent for those texts? he just keept quiet, didnt know what to say. i will contact him in two days, remembring him about the audi we participated to win, he might have forgotten. hopefully we can start to talk a bit . or even go out. but idk… i wonder aryyan, really why cant he even say hi to me or wave or anything if he said he doesnt hate me/dislike me that im a normal person he knows to him? is that cause he is in pain when he sees me? usually it is like that when u cant talk to the lvoed one cause ur hurt… if he was mad he wouldnt ignore he would smile politely and be all happy and normal and try to make me miserable….
:(( awwwh omg cry it out when you have to…. but it still hurts crying or not,,, still hurts.. :// they are together so much, being friends and gf and bf both at time..jah maybe he is upset about it, and feels like “oh if i text her again she wont answer anyways…” or maybe its tearing him inside why u didnt answer him…if u hate him or moved on or trying to do so and thats why u dont asnwer him… idk… hmm he might be in a magical relationship atm and if they are all sweet and lovely t eachother… you will sooneror later have to remind him of your existence. u know what i mean? ya contact him on day 20 . so its in betwen 19 and 21 (makes sense lol) ..
i have to say this: yesterday he came to pick up my cousin at our house and 3 hours later drove him back home… his car is pretty loud,i cna hear when he comes he knows it..and i feel like he on purpose puts more gas so i surely hear him.im so angry at our mutual friends…they were drinking yesterday a bit and OFC, thoose idiotic moves they make… they never post ANYTHING on fb.. and they had to put their alcohol and glasses + the back of his car so i saw they are together drinking again. why does he need to drink to forget me… and he knows on tuesdays i have school from 6pm to 8 pm, and that i should come with train around 9pm (21.00) so they were on the train station. ik it was on purpose.. and when he saw im not coming he went home 15minutes after the train came,cause he drove my cousin back home…i know him, he wants me near him, but doesnt want cause of stuborness.pft and now he hangs out with kids who annoy him… just to forget bout me. so not ok i think. and heartbreaking..its like he never knew mmeee at all… and we both know eachother better than anyone else.. he left me near him,which no person cant believe how this could happen.and the same is for me. we re both not so lovey dovey and good at expressing feelings and emotions….. and still he cant just try to forget me with drinking… also mutual friends are giving him chances to drink with them and they are asking me to smoke weed with them so i can forget him. their plan is to make us as far as possible from eachother. real asholes sorry.
Well i dont know about guys think. How they think how they control the ego the stubborn im not sure. But if i were him… There will be two possiblities why i didnt talk to u or hi or any respond
1) i love u but im so mad at u for whatever u did to me. Im fogiving u but i cant forget what happen. I dont want to be needy and clingy. Im trying to control myself by being away from u. But i dont hate u. I just still mad and cant forget whatever happen to me and to us
2) i dont love u but i dont hate u either. so if i say hye, it will give u a hope. I dont want to give u a hope. I might want to be friendly with u but im scared. Im scared u will be sick again and again because u hAve hope on me again which i cant give it because i dont love u for now.
If he said hye to u there will be two possibilities too if i were him. either he doesnt care at all and move on and he strictly think u as a friend which is for me definately hard to do that unless he is very good in hiding feelings Or he just want to be friendly with u and be nice and polite. Be positive and not crazy
So im not sure either. Because im also dont know what guys think
For my situation, i do cry out loud right now. Actually since yesterday. Im not feeling well since i knew about them. Which is very very very hard. What do u mean by reminding him? U mean contact him?
Anyway, besides the sweet updates between them, he also update the status and said “relationship will be successful based on 2 things : finding right person and being with right person” i was like….really? Less than a month we broke up and u move on with someone else and i guys just been 2 months together and u said she is right person? U gotta be kidding me. Im so hurt right now 🙁
@aryyan: yah he said he doesnt love me but doesnt hate me either… he knows i hope for us being together again… but sorry….. he is the best at hidding his feelings and faking how he feels… and i do not believe he unloved me just like that.. he tried hard to make things work betwen us, but he gave up after i had a bad day. how can he forget me so fast if it was the first time in his life he actually was in love and was loved and giving feelings and opening up? he knows i know him better than anyone. i told him i dont belive he doesnt love em anymore just like that and he bite his lips and smiled saying i dont.. and he needed to do that with his lips so i focused on something else than looking at if he is faking or not.. and i know he did. when i asked him for being friends he didnt say no , when i told him if he can answer when i text him he said i dont promise , maybe in some time yes…. i can see he is sad. however if he loves me or not .. that doesnt matter because i hope i can make him fall in love again after some time… it will take alot of patience but honestly… it will be worth it. i am ok with his decision, i am going on and will no break down for a guy… even if i will love him for long long time, i will not ask him to be with me again. not even once. if he willw ant to be he will say by himself, i will not.
yes by reminding him i mean contact him… when u are strong enough not to cry and beg him, but so u can act okay and happy and fresh… so u dont seem devastated. talk to him a bit after the NC..
it is okay to cry, take it all out…. it has do go out or it will bother you for even longer.. ofc u arent feeling well since ur love has a new gf and seems happy.. its understandable, and not wrong. but stay strong and try to smile and be positive no matter what happens. i know its hard, 24/7 its hard… and it doesnt get any easier, you just get to live with the hurt u feel.. :/ if u want we can get a contact somewhere else when you can always write down to me about ur feelings and sooh lol… what a ridicilous status.. maybe he thinks she is right and all… or maybe he is thinking about how she isnt right. you cant know … but be strong in any situation… update ur status maybe to feeling better or something… anything that will make him know you are not devastated .. i know they say not to update anything,,, but maybe a update about urself or a picture when ur out wont hurt… idk just my oppinion
Yah sure. We can contact somewhere it will be easier for u and me to talk about these situation. But im not sure how. Kevin said we cant exchange our email here. Need to get through with him.
or i can give u my false email i use just for games xD i can write it here and then edit the post and delete it
Ok sure. Whatever that its easier for me and u to share more ^.^
Yes im online now
Well, i went to hospital just now to take my test blood and i think i saw my ex with her 🙁 bad day today. She had appointment i think and of course he with her right now! While im going alone by myself. And he wears the shirt i gave to him 🙁 what a bad day. Sigh
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why bad day it a good day for you where he still have a feeling for you and he his wearing the shirt you gave him.
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and what about the result of check up of the blood. I think it high blood pressure as you see him with her.
I apologize I was just kidding. hope you don’t mind.
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