breaking down..pls help

okay. Ya I am wearoing something bright and positive today haha 🙂 he probably thought after he broke up with me, i will go to my old self, wearing baggy hip hop clothes, not putting make up, being all natural and stuff… but when he will see i didnt do that and im trying to be even prettier now, he will probably ask himself things.. in the worst(actualy kind of best on my oppinion lol) case he is going to stop and offer me a ride to home, so i wouldnt have to walk .. i have a feeling it might happend today, but probably wont. Should I say thank you, thats sweet but i will walk… or should i say ya.. and try to maintain an interesting conversation for 2minutes driving lol.. I’d go for a no.

@aryyan: okay, youre’right 🙂 thank you for advice ! ja im trying to, he totally loved how i look always saying how beautiful I am… maybe he will think i want to be pretty for someone else and it might give him a wake up call xD (hopefully)

so how are you doing and your situation, anything new you can tell us about ? 🙂

😀 well im not really over doing it, just looking to be dressed nice, putting some maskara on my eleyshaes and powder and thats it. usually i was just natural so this small change makes a big difference and its not overdoing it i hope 🙂

awwh, that sucks.. hm i think that he has her now, he doesnt need to contact you, since atm you’re not missed enough he has her to miss atm, but that wont last too long, im sure it’s a rebound… 9 days and he is already seeing someone else, that isnt too promising. He wants to find you in her and when he realuzes he wont… then maybe you will be on his mind again! LETS HOPE SO. i hope the best for you, stay strong and positive. but same time prepare yourself if you are going to get ur hopes broken.. we all have this option-to get even more broke, but we prefer to hang on the hope ..

@aryyan: i hope that too. omg how sad i got now about it remembering all what he said, the moments when we were in bed 10cm apart face to face looking at his eyes and talking and omg….. </3 his amazing blueeeee eyes with the perfect shape *.* i wish those moments back as soon as possible..

oh they are 6weeks together, well the first weeks are always the best and the being in love is always cute, but what when he starts to really know her, maybe he wont love what he sees and gets from her anymore… and will want you back.. but really no matter how hard it is work on yourself, you are most important for yourself ! even if he stays with her, do not loose your ground . he might miss you after 2weeks no contact, you cant know if he check on his phone to see if u wrote something , you know. I saw my ex checking on his phone yestersday having a dissapointed face that second – no text from me so ya.. he is waiting for it but..not getting it anytime soon.. maybe ur ex is also waiting. in some time talk to him and tell all the good things u’ve been doing and so . make him realize how good you are and how imrpobed u became while he was having the time of his life with that one. he will maybe want you back.

@aryyan:
yah so amazing. and his hands and strong arms pftttt how i want to touch him again and be touched by him, siiiiiiiighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, god… sometimes i feel like im a idiot, for trusting him and letting him everything what he hoped for. i was sexual abused and never let anyone touch me, bf or not.. but he… he got everything, my soul,heart,mind and body…. and now i feel bad that the only person i gave my all didnt apreciate it enough… or idk… so frustrating……..

🙁 well honestly, your situations isnt really the best neither a good one.. really i think you should focus on yourself, and maybe try to do some good things for urself. and hm prepare urself for being broken,,, but dont completly give up. its sad when u share so much with someoen and then become just like strangers…. i feel like he only sees my friends when we hang out and doesnt even want to look at me, but…. im wrong i hope. i believe it is hard… i hope he weill realize what hes missing without you.

@arryan: ya !!! omg and his side of bed we shared..still has his smell and his perfume 1million paco rabbane in my room..omg god i miss him. and driving around with him,talking,laughing,loving,caring all that…. 🙁 I am only happy he doesnt have any other girl in mind, aside me, and even that idk…) i wanted to suggest him for being friends with benefits, but it may be a bad idea…. huh or maybe not, we had a strong connection on a mental level after that also body… and now huh i dont want him to have me just for pleasure,you know…

yeah it might be a rebound… just wait a bit more… and you will see… noone knows if they have chanches to get their ex back.. but it must hurt even more if u know he is already with some other girl… i believe its killing you 🙁

@aryyan: ja well i was his first girl and the first person he loved and cared for and show that to… slowly but more and more, so he cant just forget about me in a week no freaking way…. ohmy… im full of adrenaline knowing we will see eachother today again -.-.-.- i want to, but dont want to asme time… and ya i think i am lucky he doesnt have any other girl… but our friends are telling him, LETS GO GET GIRLS THIS WEEKEND bla bla. im pissed at them , really P I S S E D. pf isntead pf helping me and shiit, they want him to move on asap . …

jah what a harsh situation this is :// they are friends for so long, they know eachother completly good… just tat they started sharing intimacy and so… god, this isnt really the best thing… it might come out really bad for you :/ or maybe even good we cant know.. they r dating so well cause the know eachothjers flaws and good things…maybe that girl was just waiting for him to break up with you, so she took her chance of being with him… and she accomplished her mission then i guess…. how can they act like this. i dont udnerstand….