my "evil" plan….more like: what I did in NC and what I'll do to have him back

So you’re saying to don’t have a coversation between us where I make things clear?

Like: I want to stay friends,I’m totally cool with that,I accepted the break up,so I want to continue to hang out with everyone…

because that was actually my plan…I thought that if I told him how things were,he might relax a bit about everything,and maybe he could feel more incline to hang out with me in the group

and after that if he says the thing about seeing him with someone told him that I’m ok with that…
Before reading your answer I thought of telling him that the same thing goes for me…I mean if he sees me with someone else,so there is no problem.

Because I don’t think that he’ll let me get away from just saying that I’m ok with that,I’m afraid that he’ll see the “lie” or he will not believe that

what all of you think?

Ugh here are 6.10p.m they usually go out at 9:30p.m, but they always call eachother about it.
I’m almost restless,waiting for at least a message to hang out,don’t expect a call….but at least a message……ugh

I think that if I don’t hear anything from anyone I’m gonna be so depressed thinking what I did wrong ,where I made mistakes in all of this,like…I did nothing right and I’m still hopeless and that I have to start everything again….

….you’re positive that I shouldn’t be the one to ask what are they doing tonight and if I can join them?

damn ,he so so so thick when it comes to other people…how can I let him see me 2.0 if he don’t fucking call me out….aaargh I’m so angry

I don’t know if I can wait 2 whole weeks….that’s too much, in the end I’ve already communicated with him both message and calls (the ones that I’ve told about, I didn’t do nothing since the last time).
And when I asked him in the message if they were doing anything that night,he told me that they were already out and already spent money ecc ecc, but the next time we would hang out.

If he was not his intention to meet up, he wouldn’t suggested it…right?

I know that all of you are saying to wait for him to call or to contact me….but I pretty sure he won’t….just because he’s like that, I on’t knw how to explain it.
I remenber one of kevin e-mails about CONSISTENCY…I’m afraid that if I don’t do something he’ll stay in that phase, I maybe be the one who’ll have to wake him up from that…

I’m so confused, I want to call him or message him, whatever, about tonight, but at the same time I’m not sure, especially because of what you all said.

I talked to his mother, and she thinks that I should contact him to ask him about tonight.
I told her that I don’t want to seem needy ,weak,desperate or that I’m trying to do something, and she told me that she thinks that asking him what are they doing tonight may seems just an harmless question. She said to be honest and said that since my friends are away and since that I don’t see the other for quiet some time if it would be a problem if I joined them…

I DON’T KNOW GUYS….I’M SO CONFUSED AND STUCK RIGHT NOW….DAMN =(

UPDATE!

Guys! Yesterday night we agreed to meet up all together!, so I went to the meeting point( wich is a pub a bit far from our homes, but we’ve akways liked it).
I had to do the road alone…of course, I’m not really great at that ahahhaha, I get lost pretty often, but I managed arrived safe and sound =).

When I’ve see him with our friends, a put on an huge smile, then I saw his new motorbike and I showed entusiasm, happiness and interest in that.

Then the others arrived and we went along with the night. After some times of joking and laughing I’ve made my proposal (for who don’tknow, I proposed to go an amusment park wich is also a waterpark, because I know that they’ll have so much fun).
And I’m so happy that they’ve agree that! We just have to decide on a date, probably next saturday.
I can’t wait ! Because I’ll be a great opportunity forme to have so much fun with everyone, and he’ll see….also I’ll be in a swimming suit….with my weight loss and gym …well it’s not bad.

after some time we decided to move to another bar, nearer our home. We paid some coffe and we went straight to play Foosball (wich I always refused to play in the past, because I wanted his attention but he always wanted to play) and I had so much fun, I even played with him as team.

after that we’ve moved to the billiard table, we played and had fun. Sometimes, since I’m short, I had to assume some…..position…wich could be a bit seductive…but hey not my fault, it’s the game, I didn’t do it on purpouse.

After some time I “attacked”….I said to everyone that the situation between him and me is like that, and I’ve accepted it, and that I just want to go out and have fun with my friends , since the summer is almost over and I want to make the best out of it. So I’m perfectly ok to go out all together.
They said that if me and him had no problems with eachother, then for them is perfectly ok to hang out, and he said that there were not problems.
Then it was time to go home (2:30 a.m ), by then we were just me, him and the two friends who are together.
When we were saying goodbye, I casually told him smiling that sometimes he had to let me try his new baby (motorbike), and he said : sure wanna try it now? I’ll take you to the parking lot where you left the car.
(Which was like…2 meter away ahahahah)

I asked him where was ok to hold on, and he said that I should grab him tight, not shoulder (I don’t know how to say it in english, sorry). And then we did a long round, going fast. I laughted because I was having fun, and when he were going faster I grabbed him tighter or I would have flown away ahahahah not for other reasons.

At the car, we told each other that as long as both were serene there was no problem to get out all together.
I said goodbye with a huge smile and went home.

so I’m still excited and happy of how it went last night, what do you think?
I’m not planning on send him messages or calling

So how do you all thinks that went..?
I actually didn’t plan the whole night….I tried, but things just sort of…followed the flow, it was actually very natural and genuine

hey a.z!

glad you are ok! I kinda feel bad having you to deal with my story, when you have other problems to think of!

So now that I’ve created this situation, which seems a great one to start working on it, what do you suggest?
I was thinking that if I have somethings to organize or other things I’d message my girl friend ( who is part of the group) or his other friend ( the one who I’ve kept a strong connection) but not directly him, so that I don’t give the wrong impression.

For example about the amusment park I think I’m gonna message my girl friend about it, to make a program about it…like decide the day and the time ecc ecc, and let her spread the news to the others, and if I’m going out with them, talk to her about it in front of everyone so that we can all agree.

I don’t want to shower him with messages about decisions ecc ecc because that’s what we were used to do when we were together.

Just a little enlightment to how to proceed without mistakes now that I’m in this new phase