How should I end no contact

Actually I just made a new letter now imagine this but in had writing from an envelope that doesn’t have my name or return address on it.

Hi this is Sean. I’m writing this letter to say that I miss you. This letter isn’t set out to try and hurt you, or even try to trick you, it’s simply a short summary of things that’s happened. Every word you read in this letter is nothing but the truth, NO exaggeration, NO over dramatics just plan, old, fashioned, honesty. I think you made the right decision at the time to end that relationship. I believe I was very immature back then and not really ready to be in one. Since we last spoke I have been doing things to help improve my life. I made the decision to go back to college at the same time as flight school. So I now go to UB for film and I almost have my next pilots license. I hope you have been treating yourself well and that you are having a fun time at school. I hear it’s very beautiful there.

I’m very sorry for the things I did in the past. It was wrong of me to forget those apps were on my phone . Since then I went to get help for my OCD and honestly I’m not showing that many symptoms of it anymore. I also apologize for the childish words that I used after you found the apps. I never meant to threaten or pressure you to come back it just came out wrong because I didn’t know how to act back then. Same goes for my actions after and during the break up they weren’t meant to make you jealous and I truthfully now know that I should have just listened to my heart and not what others said to do. I was scared because you were my first girlfriend which made my actions become very childish. I promise I’ll never do any of that again I understand what I had done to wrong you and I’m apologizing from the bottom of my heart . I’m sorry. I’m willing to start over and hopefully be friends again with you if you would ever want to. I would also like to be able to meet somewhere in public such as white rabbit because I know you like that place a lot and listen to everything that you would like to say about the situation.

I just flew over 18 mile creek lately and it reminded me of all the good times we had together. you have shown me many possibilities in life and shown me many great things. You have made me smile, you have made me happy, you have made me sad…..but above all you have made me love you…and that’s what life is…and I will never forget this. I don’t want to put any pressure on you by reminding you of the good…or even bad times we had, that isn’t fair but I will always remember them and will always wonder, what if…. Do you remember when you asked me if we were a good couple ? Well my answer to that is yes. Good couples may not have fights ever but maybe that’s because they are not communicating their feelings. Great couples like I believe we were besides from our last fight are able to overcome any obstacle . Which I believe we did and still can .From our other arguments to things like being there for eachother in a time of need. You gave me confidence to pass my pilot test because I knew someone that loved me was cheering me on. I never had fear flying because if anything ever got scary I can just think of going home to you and all the troubles in the world would go away. Just like I hope I gave you the confidence to do better at school and go to your exam you woke up late for. We always said time flew by when we would be with eachother well like the old saying goes time flies by when your having fun and how true is that quote anyway ?well it’s the one of the most true quotes I know after being with you and without you. Do you also remember when we used to be scared that maybe one or the other doesn’t like each other as much. I promised you that day I love you without an inch of doubt in me and I will walk through hell for you. Well I’d like to think that I at least metaphorically did that these past couple months with out you .

I wish you the best of luck in life

Thank you for you help it seriously means a lot to me that someone understands I still want to send something to her. this is my new version and probably the one I’ll stick with unless it’s to bad. I only changed some words so it didn’t repeat any and added the thing about my OCD so it looks like I improved myself and that it shows that’s a reason the apps were there without directly saying it. I also added the hiking and white rabbit part to remind her of some good times we had together. I also got rid of the trick you part in the beginning because maybe she might think if I’m saying that then I might actually be trying to do that.

Hi this is Sean.

This letter isn’t set out to try and hurt you, it’s simply a few things I wanted to say. I just ask that you give me the courtesy of reading it. At least for the sake of all the good times we had together.

I think you made the right decision at the time to end the relationship. I believe I was very immature back then and not really ready to be in one.

I’m very sorry for the things I did in the past,for the inappropriate words that I used after you found the apps. Since we last talked I have gotten help for my OCD and have made a lot of improvements with it.
I never meant to threaten or pressure you to come back it just came out wrong because I didn’t know how to act back then. Same goes for my actions after and during the break up, they weren’t meant to make you jealous and I truthfully now know that I should have just listened to my heart and not what others said to do. I was scared because you were my first girlfriend which made my actions become very childish. I understand what I had done to wrong you and I’m apologizing from the bottom of my heart .

You have shown me many possibilities in life and shown me many great things. You have made me smile ,very happy and above all you have made me love you and that’s what life is…and I will never forget this.
Do you remember when you asked me if we were a good couple ? Well my answer to that is yes. Good couples may not have fights ever but maybe that’s because they are not communicating their feelings. Great couples like I believe we were besides from our last fight are able to overcome any obstacle .
Just like we did. You gave me confidence to pass my pilot test because I knew someone that loved me was cheering me on. I never had fear flying because if anything ever got scary I can just think of going home to you and all the troubles in the world would go away. Just like I hope I gave you the confidence to do better at school and go to your exam you woke up late for.
Do you also remember when we used to be scared that maybe one or the other doesn’t like each other as much. I promised you that day I love you without an inch of doubt in me and I will walk through hell for you. Well I’d like to think that I at least metaphorically did that these past couple months having to experience life without you . I flew over 18 mile creek lately and thought about how fun it was to go hiking there and every else with you.

I know this is a lot to ask of you given what has happened between us, but I would like you to think about possibly meeting up somewhere maybe like white rabbit because I know you like that place a lot sometime just as a friend and catch up a bit. Theres a lot of new and exciting things happening in my life and I would like to share the exciting news with you.
I will give you time to think about it and when you are ready, get in touch with me. If I don’t hear from you then I will assume this is not something you want to do, I will understand and will not bother you again. I hope that your having fun at school the pictures you used to show me of it looked awesome.

I do wish you the best in life and I thank you for all the fun times we had

Did you read my story these were the worst things I did.

My ex girlfriend broke up with me back in June. Basically she found old dating apps on my phone that I either never went on and forgot they were there or they were viruses that appeared when I turned my phone on or off. The one real one was hot or not and I never even talked to anyone on it and the virus was meetme I clicked on that infromt of her and it went on the Internet and said download it now. One of the reasons I forgot they were there was that I had bad OCD and would get anxiety if I went on those pages so I never did and truthfully forgot about them. She didn’t believe me. During it the most threatening or mean thing I said was maybe I should hurt myself but said I was sorry right after. I also said I couldn’t eat or sleep I was so sad. We were with each other and said nice things for more days after that. A week After the break up I made a fake Facebook account that she probably knew was me so she so she added my real one back but ended up blocking both. I erased the fake one.
Another mistake I made was 2 weeks after I went to a bar with a friend and added 3 girls on Facebook because my friend told me to . she saw this and blocked my account and dropped off everything I gave her. We even became friends for a week after. Then I sent her another big text to try and get back with her . She said don’t text me. But then we snap chatted for about a week almost as if talking to each other. Then the last text so far from my phone was August 9 I sent her a nice happy birthday and she talked nice the whole day but the next morning I sent a very nice good morning and she got mad and said I was talking to other girls on snapchat . She was second friend because she didn’t talk to me anymore and I just got random hellos from people. I got mad and said she hurt me to so I should block her. But she knew other ways to contact me and that I love her. She replied with FU and blocked my phone and Facebook. A week later I sent a small text from my friends phone but I didn’t get to say everything I wanted to. A week after that I dropped off a gift I got her earlier that she returned on her street in front of her house but not on her property.
Earlier in November I went on meetme that I just downloaded for the first time because that was the virus one she got mad at ,to try and move one because everybody was telling me to and saw her on it . I didn’t try talking to her I just clicked on her profile then she blocked mine.

I sent my story everywhere the responses I got were either don’t send it at all. But I obviously want a last chance. Or send it in January (she will be in town) or February (she will be back at school so hopefully her parents will give it to her but February would be the 6 months of no direct contact) others say send it in May (6 months since the meet me incident and the month we first went out) but would that be to late. And finally I have people saying send it next year or get a friend of hers to talk to her and never send it all (problem with that is I doubt a friend of hers will talk to me because if she actually does think I cheated on her even though I didn’t then I’m pretty sure they don’t like me as well. Considering there was her best friend the main one I used to talk to and she blocked me on Facebook because my ex probably told her to because she doesn’t know the truth yet).
So my question to you is if you think she won’t be able to get a restraining or no contact order for this ? And if I do send which right now I still want to then when should I?

Random fact of other websites was get rid of the last question to meet somewhere and probably add more details of how I didn’t cheat again. But my mom and sister are on your side of the less the better of I send it.

Can you please read my new final letter so far after I took more advice from everywhere and let me know your honest opinion. I added more to the apology and to the bottom happy part because she just got a new bike and we used to go riding together. I also put one happy thing in the beginning so maybe it would get her to read more by being lighter.

Hi this is Sean.

This letter isn’t set out to try and hurt you it’s simply a few things I wanted to say. I just ask that you give me the courtesy of reading it. At least for the sake of all the good times we had together. I flew over 18 mile creek lately and thought about how fun it was to go hiking there and every else with you.

I think you made the right decision at the time to end the relationship. I believe I was very immature back then and not really ready to be in one.

I’m very sorry for the things I did in the past,for the inappropriate words that I used after you found the apps. I should have been more aware of the stuff on my phone. Since we last talked I have gotten help for my OCD and have made a lot of improvements with it. So hopefully I will never be that foolish again.
I never meant to threaten or pressure you to come back it just came out wrong because I didn’t know how to act back then. Same goes for my actions after and during the break up, they weren’t meant to make you jealous and I truthfully now know that I should have just listened to my heart and not what others said to do. I was scared because you were my first girlfriend which made my actions become very childish. I admit I tried to move on because people told me to but I couldn’t I just think of you or you would literally be everywhere to me. I learned now for the future that love should have been between us and only us. Even if it was just talking as friends to others, I’m now fully aware of how bad my mistakes were. I understand what I had done to wrong you and I’m apologizing from the bottom of my heart .

You have shown me many possibilities in life and shown me many great things. You have made me smile ,very happy and above all you have made me love you and that’s what life is…and I will never forget this.
Do you remember when you asked me if we were a good couple ? Well my answer to that is yes. Good couples may not have fights ever but maybe that’s because they are not communicating their feelings. Great couples like I believe we were besides from our last fight are able to overcome any obstacle .
Just like we did. You gave me confidence to pass my pilot test because I knew someone that loved me was cheering me on. I never had fear flying because if anything ever got scary I can just think of going home to you and all the troubles in the world would go away. Just like I hope I gave you the confidence to do better at school and go to your exam you woke up late for.
Do you also remember when we used to be scared that maybe one or the other doesn’t like each other as much. I promised you that day I love you without an inch of doubt in me and I will walk through hell for you. Well I’d like to think that I at least metaphorically did that these past couple months having to experience life without you .

I know this is a lot to ask of you given what has happened between us, but I would like you to think about possibly meeting up somewhere maybe like white rabbit because I know you like that place a lot sometime just as a friend and catch up a bit. Theres a lot of new and exciting things happening in my life and I would like to share the exciting news with you. I am also very interested to listen to anything you would like to say and would like to hear what you have been up to lately.
I will understand if you do not want to meet or talk and will not bother you again this will be my farewell. I hope that your having fun at school the pictures you used to show me of it looked awesome. It must be really fun being able to ride your new bike there. That sounds like it would be an amazing time with you.

I do wish you the best in life and I thank you for all the fun times we had

It’s fine I know it’s just I’m getting really close to wanting to send something to finally move one. Basically my main question now is do you think enough time went by in January . She blocked my meet me in November but that could have been because she didn’t recieve a letter like this yet. Or should I just wait until May.

Thank you for helping me out. My main concern is if she can get a restraining or no contact order. Idk why she would if I didn’t say anything in months and it’s really nice. Just some people are scaring me about that because she blocked me. So I guess I’ll just try to move on this month then next call a lawyer to ask what could happen.

Thank you for your thoughts and I don’t think she would because she didn’t do anything before and I don’t think I ever did anything bad enough even if I send the letter for her to get one. My problem is I should talk less about my problems to people because if I did that I would happily send the letter. The thing that got me scared about that was my friend that’s parents just broke up. His mom got one against his dad but he like hurt her physically and threatened to kill himself with a shotgun in their house. I know I’m not like that it’s just scarring me because she blocked my phone and now that friend is like you don’t want to be like that. So I’m going crazy going on lawyer websites to see if she can get one for this. Some say yes others say no. This is the only dating site that I found a person to actually talk to me and not call me a harassing stalker . So I thank you for that.