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awww thank you so much for the comment guilia, That really helps me.

I will text him perhaps next week, but I also keep Fingers crossed that he texte me.

I just try not to lose hope.

So I hope you both work out again from the bottom of my heart.

I meditate a lot to sort my thoughts and do a lot of Yoga to clear my mind.

And I believe everything will fall into place.

I’m getting Kevins emails already. There was were I read today about the consisteny state and I would agree that is exactly where he is at the moment. I will read a bit about the text message opening lines.

well the problem is he cant see those changes if we don’t get in touch.

thank you very much for your answer.
So basically we were dating for half a year and he were all in. We even went on vavcation with his parents and we nearly spend every minute together, made future plans and everything.
When he met me I was the happiest person alive and within the last half a year it faded and i got insecure about us, about me and about my desicions in live. I live abroad from home as I study again (I’m 26 and he is 27). So I never planned to stay here as the income is quite low for jobs after university. So as spending so much (maybe too much) time together he got aware of all the insecurities. He not really gave me a reason except that he said he is not sure if we are really meant to be for each other.
In addition he has a very difficult situation at work and perhaps did not have the head for more stress. However we had a postcard in his flat where everyone now and then wrote something and by chance the other person saw it after a while. Always with a date and he very wrote I’m making him to the happiest person alive.
We went to italy for a weekend and everything was perfect and two days after we came back he didn’t talk to me for a day and so when I met him the next day he said he is not sure etc.

Then I went home for a days totally broken where I did the usual mistiges of telling him how much I love him, we phoned once and he also cried a lot. Since then we basically have the now contact rule exept the day we exchanges things.

I asked once last week if we should meet up, and that I don’t want to judge him or any explainations. I just care about him and he answered that he doesn’t think we are ready to see us yet. I did not answer until a week ago, what he would suggest is a good time to see us again.

I did not get an answer. However he is a very logical person and has problems of showing his Feelings normally in terms of every desicion he makes he does with his head and not with his heart.

I went on with my live, and did not contact him, but I believe we are meant to be together. I think his brain is holding him back as well as he is afraid to admit to his self that he made a mistake as well as what would every one think if we would get back together?!

I learnt a lot about myself in the breakup and everything in my life fell into place. So I’m happy and in a good position. However I miss him desperately. I do not stalk him or anything at all, but I know he goes on a festival this weekend etc. And i believe he just tries very hard to believe he did the right desicion. Otherwise he had asked for his key back and there is still some things at his place.

So this is the situation, and I do not want to hold back on the bad things, we hurt each other as in every break up, but I want to have a fresh start and see whats happening. And I do not know how to approach him and to give him the feeling that I do not need him for my happiness but it is my desicion to be with him because I love. As well I want to take him the fear of what other people say or that I judge him or hate him or hurt him or anything. Because thats simply not what I want. I made peace with everything that happened I just want a new start with the person I love so deeply.