Tyler655

Update
She started sending me voice messages rather than texting me and I’ve been responding in a very friendly way. We get to the point when she started flirting and later that day I suggested video chat. We talked about everything and was all in all great talk. As I thought, we started talking about us and the position we’re in. We both realized that we cannot be friends or act like we are when we re together. And we should let things just happen and not force anything. She says I’m the inly one age’s interested even though we broke up and still loves me very much. Also admitted we were about to have sex that day and that it would have been great but confusing for both, hinted at the fact that it might happen later… We finally agreed to meet up at her house later this week… I’ll keep you posted.

Part 4
I decided that the last thing I should do was congratulate her on a web show she was about to start so I sent the message. She thanked me and replied that she still cares about me,and I left it at that.
Next day, I couldnt help but watch her show. But before that she sent me a message about how nervous she was and thanking me for all the support for her to get there and that I was the main person that was and still is important in her life. so I answered a bit indifferently and gave her tips to not be nervous. But we said we still cared about each other at the end of that.
The show ended and I was so proud if her I left a note in the web stream chat that she would only understand, and another similar text note. She noticed that and thanked me for the note and believing in her. Told me I could not imagine how much she loved me and I said the same. I added that we both needed space and that if I was distant, to not take it the wrong way . This did not last of course. Next day I messaged her saying that I reconsidered and did not want her to get bored on her vacations. We should be friend because we were doing this all wrong and it felt wrong. We facetimed later that day cause she wanted me to check her PC. So she was playing around with the cam until we saw each other. Thats when we both realized how great we were talking face to face, even on cam. She started to look at me in that dreamy way while we talked, told me she missed me. I asked her what was wrong and and she started tearing up, said shed call me back. I was cool the whole time and she called back and had a great talk. I felt so happy and at the same time confused.
I told her we should we should go out as friends because we both wanted to see each other. She was reluctant, she said she didn’t what happened the other day to happen again because it was not right. I told her to let it happen if it has to.
She dramatically responded “nothing is going to happen” and that she didn’t want to lead me on. I told her if “nothing was going to happen then what is she so afraid of”
She thought about it and agreed to meet soon. That same day she asked me about my day and music. I started replying but she responded in a indifferent way or just cutting me off. I let it slide for that day.
I confronted her today about that, lashing out saying if she just wanted to keep me as another ex boyfriend.
I also told her about the facetime session and if she didn’t think that it was strange. She told me that she realized as me, we were both still in love. But that we were hurting and needed to be friends and see what happens after if anything happens. And that she also wanted to see me but I should not pressure her by saying things like that.
I agreed to see her maybe later today, and am confused out of my mind
Don’t know if NC is best at this point or go along with her plan

(Part two) After the breakup I was clearly angry, for not talking to me about it first and making that decision alone. So i texted her nonstop asking for her to reconsider and that there was a solution to this. This went on for about three weeks in which at the end I agreed to meet and be friends. I pitched my last proposition and she still said no, that only by being friends we would find out.
I gave in and told her we d be friends. I walked her to her train stop. We hugged and couldn’t help but kiss. She was clearly shaken up, as I was. Asked her about it, she responded in a aggressive way that I should live on day at a time. Didnt seem herself. I proposed to get back, she told me she cannot make that mistake in trying again, not with me.