Hey, no contact is not killing you, it’s actually your best choice now. I know you feel now like crying, wanting him in your arms talking to you, but believe me: don’t make a fool of yourself. If you make nc for at least 2 weeks, you’ll start feeling calmer and see things in perspective.. and honestly that’s the thing that matter. YOU DIDN’T DO ANY WRONG. Don’t do wrong by chasing and being clingy while he said he needs space!
believe me, I’ve been there, a lot of us were, nc will calm you down and do you good. Just don’t concentrate only on “I can’t contact him!” But try to concentrate on yourself and the pain you’re experiencing. You did nothing wrong.