KevinRev

I here ya. I guess i’ll just keep focusing on myself, and while doing that i’ll also just keep the NC. School is going to be so rough and nerve racking tomorrow. I might see her talk to other guys, but i guess this can’t stop me from talking to other guys. It’s just been so long, such a weird transition. I’m not exactly the best with girls, but i did get girls before so why not now. I was happy before i met her, and i can be happy again. Thanks for the response.

Oh, and before i went into NC, there was begging, pleading, and the usual mistakes. I was being very clingy, paranoid, a bit controlling, and the works…for a time, things were getting better, but then they straight down plummeted. The last time i ever physically saw her, she was very annoyed and cranky, because i kept calling her and texting her because i was waiting for her outside in the hot sun for almost two hours. (Car had a flat, and she doesn’t live to far) She also didn’t entirely know it was me calling the whole time, because i only did that so she would reply faster. Though she finally figured it out that day, and that probably didn’t help at all. I was incredibly paranoid, and scared to lose her but i never ever called her after we officially broke up, and i never stalked her. It was a very short awkward walk, she barely talked, i cried a bit, i gave her some gifts to remind us of our past, and took her to some old places we use to go in the beginning of our relationship. Nothing helped, she just seemed incredibly uncomfortable, and i wonder if she was even in contact with her ex by then. i also spoiled her in gifts, so maybe her room is filled with memories, because i gave her a lot of stuff. Anyways, that was what i left out. Any advise will help! Thank you again!

Thanks for the reply, i really appreciate it. I only called off no contact so early because, in my incredibly hard clingy faze, i deleted her, but immediately added her back, but she didn’t accept or decline any friend invitation on and social media. So i assumed she either forgot about it, and it just kept showing that it was sent but no answer to it. Out of the blue she accepts 4 – 5 days ago. I didn’t say anything to her yet, but it was the only thing where i knew she was on her PC and she couldn’t pretend like she was busy or something. i guess i only messaged her because i of course miss her like crazy, but school is starting again soon. It just would feel so weird, and i know that she has like 7 different guy she could date or rebound on, but she has told me when we were friends that she didn’t like any other guys, and she has told me that when were together. I guess i’ll go back to NC. Though, i have been taking care of myself, i go to the gym weekly, i hang with friends, i’ve been taking jobs, but now she is just everywhere so it’s just getting very difficult. Should i just follow the 5 step plan now? At this point, i also feel guilty that she is talking to her horrible ex again :/ i feel like i pushed her to do it. And i guess i’m going to have to go through a portion of the school year without her :/