Dopierk

You’re right. I’m never going to get him back from a woo is me position of sadness.

I will text him tomorrow afternoon and will be ok no matter what happens because I said I would.

No more stalling, no more excuses.

You guys. I feel like I’m unraveling a little bit.

I can’t even figure out why. But I just feel defeated. And I don’t want to text him again until I feel better. I need like a pep talk or something. I felt like I got my confidence back after NC and now it’s rapidly fading again. I don’t know, maybe it’s the holidays coming up. I just feel like I’m losing him. Like he’s completely over me.

*ax not ex, I’m not going to send that

What do you guys think about me sending a text first to peak his curiosity? Like saying, “You will never believe what just happened!” Or “You will never believe what I just saw!” And then making him wait for an hour and replying with my turkey story?

I like the idea of making him wait for an hour and keep checking his phone/thinking about me but it could backfire. He might not respond to my first text and then I don’t get to tell my story…

I think it’s too long. 254 characters. Hmmm, how can I make this shorter…

EDIT: “Discovered my co worker’s cell has a turkey ringtone. He even imitated the sound! Reminded me of you poking fun at my Hokiebird gobbling noises. Made me laugh!”

What about this? much shorter.

There was something that happened recently that reminded me of an inside joke but idk how well he will respond to it. Haha.

I guess I’ll try and tell you and you let me know what you think.

LOL, this is going to make me sound so dorky. I swear I’m super cool sometimes. Haha.

Ok, so my ex and I are huge sports fans. The college I went to, the mascot is sort of a turkey. So when we first started dating, he asked a lot of questions about our mascot, liked to jokingly make fun of our mascot, and wanted me to get him a t shirt with our mascot on it. He said he would wear it when we watched my school’s football games. He became adorbaly obsessed with our mascot. So one of the questions he would ask was, since our mascot is sort of a turkey does it make turkey noises, gobble, gobble all that stuff.

So I told him this story, about when I was freshman at college and how the orientation leaders convinced us to form a turkey with our hands and make turkey noises. It was a joke but they some how convinced us all the cool kids did this at football games haha. Anyways, so I demonstrated this to him and he pretty much laughed uncontrollably and then asked me to make that turkey noise again. I refused, I was so embarrassed. After that it kind of became our little inside joke, he would ask me randomly to make the noise and one day I convinced him to do it. He sounded nothing like a turkey and I corrected him on how to do it. Haha. And we had a sold ten minute discussion on what a turkey sounds like. Haha.

So it became this silly thing we bring up from time to time.

Anyways, so recently I was at work and a co worker of mine’s phone rang and their ringtone was this strange animal noise. I was like “Is that a monkey ringtone?” And they responded all defensively, “No, that’s a turkey.” I laughed and they were like, “It’s a real turkey noise not gobble, gobble” and then they demonstrated the noise. it reminded me of our little inside joke. And I laughed so hard.

I could tell him this story in a text. I just don’t know how to make it concise. I know if we were still together he would definitely find it funny. I just don’t know where he is at right now emotionally.

This is very true.

It’s kind of weird…I had this convo once with my ex. He was like is it better to meet the love of your life when you are young? or is better to date a lot of different people, experience heartbreak and then find the right person?

Sooo, I’m going to reach out to my ex either tomorrow or Thursday by text and I am so stumped on what to say. “Hey, how are you?” is not going to cut it…