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I hope everything goes well tomorrow for You belle. Sending best wishes!!

I am going through a family dilemma since I woke up this morning and I don’t think I will be able to check in for a few days. It’s so wierd that they say things happen in threes. Over the last 10 months what happened today will be the third. It’s really really been a tough day. Right when I start to get my positive energy back in life it seems like something happens to bring back negativity and sadness.

Aphrodite thanks for you response, I had a chance to quickly read you response. Hopefully in a few days I will be able to re read it.

Atea,
I don’t know why I can’t just muster up the energy or strength to put it all on the line. A part of me respects her decision and the other part is definitely fear. its just not easy. I will hopefully be able to read what else is going on with you. I just know the next few days will be tough for me to be on here and catch up.

Having another “moment”.
These do pass right?
I really want to call him now and do more of the apology/take-me-back please/we can make it work speech.
I just don’t understand how he can be so done -after 8 years -and not want to keep trying. Ugh!!! Shoot me now. This just sucks.

Sorry to keep overwhelming the boards but these moments just hit and it’s very hard to not get up and go over there.

@Mellen3869 no don’t do it. IMO that is close to stalking. And I saw my ex today and I couldn’t hold back. I had to tell her face to face about what happened. I feel soooo much better now. We will stay as friends to show I have changed but she said she can’t make any promises that she will take me back.

Update

Got an email saying if he doesn’t get to my house in time he will be at bus stop.
Because he’s emailed this I’m going to pretend Ive not received it. I’m going to drive my son to school this morning instead as I do not want a seedy meeting at side of busy road.

He’s avoiding my house. Avoiding texting me, avoiding everything. If he doesn’t come to my house he can go to hell. I’m sorry but it’s all too degrading. If he can’t leave early enough to spare my son 5 mins.
The bus stop is the same distance as my house. It’s ridiculous.

I would like to think I’m worth more in life than to be treated like this.
His inability to text me rather than email is degrading me.
He had his chance with me, he’s ruined everything and I’m through with his power games.

Or email him back last minute saying that – this is really inconvenient, you are actually driving him to school, so the busstop plan won’t work for you and if he can’t spare the time for your son to just forget about it.

Update!

He came round!!

He actually came to my house!

I jumped to conclusions (just for a change)! Just after I posted my last message he knocked on the door! I kinda froze, I did t know what to do so then he rang on door bell so I jumped to it.
He came in! He took his shoes off!!!

He apologised for ringing on door bell but said he didn’t know whether I heard heard him knock.
So he came in and we said hello, I then told hi if he wanted to go up stairs to see my boy, in which I had told him I was going to drive him this morning as he’s finding it difficult getting out of bed.
So he went upstairs and I left them too it for a while then joined them, my son was still drowsy and it was difficult for him to get out of bed. So I asked my ex if I could swho him something… Took him into my bedroom and showed him the newly decorated room and new bed! Aphrodite! I actually did that! And he obliged! He said it look really nice.
We went downstairs to where the dog was and she was so excited to see him! Tail going berserk! He stayed with her and scratched her for a few minutes. Back up stairs to get my boy out of bed again.
He sat on his bed and I noticed his eyes filled with tears. I didn’t say anything because my eyes were on and off water works (silently), desperately trying not to cry.
We went back downstairs and he put his shoes on and we waited for my boy to come downstairs. I was standing about 7ft away from him and I looked at him for ages then he caught my eyes and he looked away and mentioned the way I parked my car out the front. I’ve 2 parking spaces on my drive and if we ever fell out I would hog both spaces so he mentioned the way I parked brought up the memories of bad times, even though he said that of course to park the way I had do e today was only natural as no need to get another car on drive.
I didn’t want to mention anything about the relationship but he did. I told him that he knew the reason why I behaved like I did and he said yes I know, but I said to him, I don’t think he really knew, not really really knew. Anyway, he took my sons bags and put them in the car and he also put the dog in the car too.
My son appeared and gave the gift to him and as I closed the front door to head off to school I handed him the letter saying he can read it on the plane or bin it which ever he wanted to do and he replied that no he wouldn’t bin it, he will read it.
So we drove off and past him walking back to his car and we waved.

And that is that!

So it was positive that we had a pleasant 15 or 20 mins in all together. He didn’t appear to rush off or agitated, he actually appeared pleased to be here.

I’ve not heard from him since , but I don’t expect too.

Round of applause everyone! Lol

Aphrodite,

Just to clarify as I may have used rubbish grammar but it was my ex whose eyes welled up not my son!

As for celebrating, well it’s def a step forward, most definitely but I don’t know what he’s thinking. He might just want to be amicable and friends. He might never want a relationship with me again.

Him coming and not feel threatened or uncomfortable is great. He seemed genuinely happy to be here and let me show him everything. He loved seeing the dog and it was so nice the dog went nuts!

It’s a positive step forward but who knows what he’s thinking!