Hey octopus2016,
How are you holding up? I was checking to see how’s your situation going.
I do notice you are switching to the “anger phase” post breakup, which is totally normal.
Let me tell you that the sooner you let go of your negative feelings, the sooner you start feeling relieved and better.
Unfortunately no one has a correct answer to your last question, I can tell you though that there is only one or a few people we meet who leave an unforgettable mark in our lives.
Of course you are worthy, everybody is worthy of love and respect. I have turned down multiple dates as well in these past two months but I don’t regret it at all, I am not emotionally available. Be strong and release all your bad vibes, this moment will pass and there are good chances that he will come around again.