Do I have a chance, please advice..

Hello Kevin,

I broke up with my bf couple of times cuz of my jealousy and I guess trying to control him, he and I met while we were working at the same office and before we started I ask him if he has a gf as I’ve heard he has a gf but he said no and we started and later I learnt that he had finished his 2,5 years of relationship over the phone to start with me…after 6 months we had to quit working at that office and he moved to another city but he and I were all together everyday and talking on the phn for hours then I found a job and moved to his city and we started to live together with ups and downs, our plan was to go abroad together but it didnt happen for some reasons and he found a job and started to work,and all started after he had to start working at a job he didnt want and I mentioned about marriage and stuff, we started to argue over I left him and I quit the job and came back home then he kept sending text msgs all blaming me all was my fault and everything I felt guilty then we started to talk over the phn again, then I was not comfortable seeing us apart and wanted to come together but all he thought was finding a better job to go abroad either me or he but nothing happened, we started to argue over again…like this its gonna be for 2 years next month…2 months ago I got a job offer from somewhere in his city and I was going to come back home to get my stuffs to move in to his house again but just before this cuz of jealous I argued with him again and he changed his mind about me moving and that put me down so bad told myself I’ll never ever talk to him again cuz of what he did after I set out everything to start over..I came back home and couple of days later he started sending me emails and text messages telling me why I did all those sht and I ruined his life and put him desperate and he did feel choked, I didnt answer then he started telling me about his life which is miserable and hes worth for nothing and his illlness, he mentions about it as if he ll die or something, he caught me on my weak part and I started worrying about him and talked to him again everyday sending him text msgs calling him to see how he is doing etc…then one day I called him again and I felt he kinda changed like he got bored with my care about him telling me that I dont have to bare with him and his problems that he is always mourning and not being satisfied with anything then I told him to finish it he accepted and I got very angry that I felt he used me,I couldnt accept it and argued over, asked him whether he loves me or not if he doesnt then I will go on with my own life he said he cant say somethin he doesnt feel, I did feel miserable same night called him again as he was having dinner with his parents he said ok we can talk, he told me that he is like himself with me but we are not matching, went on he becomes something bad when he is with me like he get spoiled or something and the right thing is to suffer for once than suffering for whole life, saying that I was impatient from the beginning for things and he did feel choked, had no space then told me to call me back after the dinner I said ok but I didnt pick up his call, next day he sent me msgs telling he called back asking why didnt answer, again called I picked up and I didnt feel like talking I had the hate feeling he said sorry for disturbing and hung up…4 days later he called again, didnt answer sent me text msg saying; was only curious about how you doing , if I disturbed then sorry…then sent me a song link via whatsapp…didnt answer…after that he didnt call or messaged for two weeks then I called him unfortunately and spit fire, told him some bad things as I was very angry that he finished it like that easy just for calling twice..next day I called him again which was my last call and I was chill and relax at that time telling me what will happen if we start over again the same things will happen but I didnt mention to start over or anything…then he was curious and said; you dont think about marrying me anymore I guess or maybe marrying some other I went on no not thinking about it…he meant to say that we may talk again like friends maybe first I said oh why not as sarcastic then I said no I cant be as friends then he said I guess I cant be either and I dont want to see you with someone else…then said somethings more about our relationship and asked me what I think I said I dont have anything to say he said why I said somethings and you go blank, said just like that…anyway this was the last talk and it will be one week tomorrow…please advice, I sometimes feel ok I can move on but sometimes I just cant handle with the thoughts what if he forgets me, finds someone etc…I’m sorry it was a long type…please say some words…thanks a lot I do appreciate it!