Super6eight

So… I’m like, day 5 or 6 in to the no contact rule. Told her not to contact me unless it’s important to talk about our relationship or something like that otherwise I need space. Unfriended her on snapchat and Facebook. We went through an abortion after she broke up with me. I was there for her. She was texting me friendly shit and joking around but I told her that stuff(she broke up with me btw) anyways. I’m not telling this story well lol. I ended up going out last night with my friends. I haven’t drank since we broke up and I told her the I had quit. One of her friends ended up being at the bar. He’s not a friend of mine though. Talked to him a little. Asked how we were doing. Told him we broke up. Acted like it didn’t matter. I didn’t tell him about sobriety and they were giving me water at the bar in large glasses, not plastic cups. May be overthinking things but… I haven’t been looking at her Facebook or anything but I got the inkling to for some reason and it turned out she blocked me! And I don’t understand why… I haven’t been bad to her. I don’t know what it means. I don’t know why she did that to me either. I don’t know if this means that there is no hope anymore. Also I don’t know how long I am supposed to do this no contact thing because of that abortion. We were broken up for about 3-4 weeks before I did the no contact thing. She also broke up with me 3 days after I paid for our vacation together. I don’t know what to do.. I’m so hurt. I don’t get why she gets to block me. Why?? Ugh. Having a hard time ever since that.