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I just have to take this off my chest, I think I made a mistake today. We broke up again, 11 days ago and I had a dream about her and decided to send her a message, I told her, I dreamt about her last night and she told me she was started missing me terrible last couple days and she tried to go back online to date and it makes her feel physically sick to think to be with somebody else. I told her I miss her too and would like to see each others over the weekend, As we talked I offer couple things we could do this weekend ( what we like to do together)
But she wasn’t sure if that would be good idea, she doesn’t know what to do, she asked me if she can think about it and I said yes.

Later on I was curious and checked the website where we met ( I creat fake profile ) and ya she was there online.

Now, I just feel stupid that I tried to reach out to her, don’t understand if you miss someone, why would you go online dating, what kind excuse is that…even after seven days you start looking for someone, like hook up???

Mine are same 8 and 10 too.

Thx

Thanks for your replay,

I would like to put some updates, and get some answers if it possible, because it’s really messy. I am not sure how to put this one, but we got back seeing each other month ago.

She proposing us to do casual dating, not include our children into or each other friends, I asked if that means seeing other people, she kinda hesitate but we agreed not, or unless you meet some one to let other person to know it.

Now she has stages, where she would text me how much she loves me, she wish we met earlier and had our own family ( she wanted to have a child with me and she ask me to have, but I didn’t want). After when I asked her about it, she would say that I am too emotional.

She said that she’s confused, maybe because before we met she was in relationships/affair with a guy for three years when she found out that he is actually married and has a two kids that she didn’t know. When she started seeing him, she was still married and after two years into affair with him, she separated and they were in relationship. She doesn’t know from where we go now, that we have to figure out what’s happening!?!?

I bit feel awkward with everything, our texting is not us used to be, things that we used to do together, we don’t do together, we spend less time together, but she doesn’t want to let me go. I just feel she keeps me around till she find somebody else, just to be bandage. I don’t really want to waste me time in hope for something will eventually change, but not sure what to do now.

Thx