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That isn’t my goal here. She’s a wonderful person. Just miss having her presence in my life. My goal isn’t to rekindle the relationship
We play bar league volleyball at the same bar. Honestly, i just want to be able to acknowledge each other. It’s insane to me you can love someone and then pretend you never know they existed. I can’t do that.
Well today is her birthday. I still haven’t decided what to do. I’ve thought of dropping a letter off in her mailbox or just texting her. Or not reaching out at all. After all, she didn’t reach out on my birthday? Doesn’t that show she doesn’t care
With that being said, doesn’t it seem a bit brash to have no communication with her and then jump right back into meeting up with her? I feel like I need to establish a relationship via texting periodically. Am I wrong here?
Yes I have. The only thing that matters to me truly is winning her back. The controllingness, never admitting I’m wrong, and the video games it’s all gone. It doesn’t matter. I just miss her more than anything.
Also, thank you for the belated birthday wish.
Speaking of that, her birthday is march 30th. So after not receiving a text on my birthday, I’ve contemplated not texting her? Or should I? I’m just lost at this point!
Just wanted to quickly follow up. I’ve been off of here for a while. I just needed to take a step back for a while.
I haven’t spoken to my ex since the meetup which was about two months ago. I needed to decompress and get my mind rights I felt I was still acting out of desperation. So I haven’t reached out to her at all. I still think about her every single day and I still know that she’s the one I want so badly. I’ve learned I don’t NEED her to be happy, but having her in my life makes me so so happy. So I guess I’m wondering what my next step should be. Should I just stay out of the picture for a bit and maybe we run into eachother somewhere and strike up a conversation? It feels impossible to generate meaningful conversation via text message, perhaps that’s wrong. My goal isn’t to force her to fall back in love with me. I want her to see I was wrong and so sorry and that I’m a much better person now. I just feel like any conversation will go back to the past. I want a future with this woman, as much as the past means to me, all I care about is a future with her.
So we haven’t spoken since the meetup. Today was my birthday. It’s 9:17pm, still nothing from her. This sucks so much.
Me and Ashley haven’t texted since the meet up. I haven’t reached out to her except the text I told you I sent. I truly thought our lunch was really nice, and she seemed to enjoy it as well. So I guess I’m just confused
So I texted Ashley yesterday and said that “I really enjoyed our lunch, and I hope we can do something again sometime soon” I also added “have fun working your double today” (something she told me on our lunch.)
I’m pretty sure she was working when I texted her. But she never responded to my text.
I did.
I just worry that our texting and conversations (aside from in person) lack substance. I miss having her in my life.
So I just had the meet up with ash. It went kind of like a reunion of old friends more than anything else. We caught up with what was going on in each other’s lives and talked and joked a bit. Lasted about an hour. But it was very platonic. I don’t feel like she opened a door for me romantically or anything. It’s so hard seeing the person you love in the flesh, and not being able to act on it.
