neo geo

Do you know if she read the rant you posted or had access to it?

Since your relationship was 3 years & since she was aware of your cancer & since you’ve really had no contact with her since Feb 12th, I don’t think a few days early from the 30 day No Contact period would be a big deal. However, she may not believe you & think you are trying to gain sympathy or manipulate her.

If your next medical visit or procedure is after the 30 day period, I would wait the full 30 days & then contact her with a simple message: “may I ask you a simple question?” (I’ve had success with short openers like that) If she says yes, ask her if she wants to be informed of any news concerning your medical condition. If she says yes again, tell her what is happening. Keep it short but then you can ask if she’d like to discuss it in more detail over the phone sometime at her convenience. You will tell by her text replies if she has been thinking about you & cares enough right now to speak to you.

There is a danger in this approach though: once you text her, you will be glued to the phone thinking, when will she text me back, why isn’t she answering, is she ignoring my text, etc… & then your emotions may spiral out of control & you may find you have texted her 3 or 4 more times, each one getting more emotional than the previous. Fair Warning.