I would like to thank all of you for your responses they all make a lot of sense. Plus it feels better coming from another person. Ok well today I finally found out the true problem with me. I’m insecure! But I have to give that up and I am. And as soon as I realized that so much burden was lifted off of me. I’m actually happy, because I know I’m a better person now. I actually thank her for leaving me because it helped both of grow. I still want her back but at this point I can go with out her. Because I’m a new person and I like this feeling. I wrote her a letter and I want to send it off this week, even tho we’ve only had nc for 2 days. I want to send her the letter then start the nc all over.