Lil0ne

I’m on day 2. The hardest thing about this NC rule is that starting in two days is college. This means Ill be seeing her everyday and sharing the same bed. She just texted me this morning saying she didn’t want me to wait for her. Saying she wants to focus on her and have a clean slate; no past promises and no worrying about me. Just yeaturday and the day she broke my heart though, she kissed me more than once on the lips. I’m just so hurt and sad I don’t know what to do. The only thing I’ve been doing after getting that text was going into my closet and punching the wall. I can’t stand this hurt and pain. I have no one to talk about this to. The whole story of our relationship is just hard to tell anyone because of how society is. I can’t sleep. I’ve already lost 5 pounds in two days. I just can’t keep it together. What am I supposed to do when school starts again? We have all the same classes. I’ve hit rock bottom before, but this is something totally different. I don’t know if I can do it.