ifeelcrazy24

That sounds like a lot to put in a first text message?

I have completely stopped drinking, almost at 2 months now. He won’t talk to me and we don’t really have any mutual friends so he has no idea I’m sure. I want so bad to reach out just to apologize and let him know I take some responsibility for what happened. The last conversation we had over a month ago where I begged again (dumb I know) he said he had been on 2 dates. I told him I had too, which I have but I felt I was only telling him out of feeling hurt and regret that now. I have made it 17 days without reaching out to him and have not heard from home. I have tried to get back out there and do things for myself. I picked up sewing again as a hobby and started back riding lessons on my horses (we had horses together before). I am just struggling and trying to maintain hope.