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hey friends…
i found out today that my ex is seeing someone else,my mfriend told me who is also one of our mutual friends.she is with the guy who was giving her jobs to do,she was making necklaces for him from her home,and this guy has alot of money,he recently got devorced,has two kids and he is 45 years old.i met him once wile we were togheter with my ex.
i was finaly getting to a point where i was feeling better and happier and then i heard the news and it hit like a tone of bricks,i was paralized.i could not belive it,i was in shock,and i did what i must not do…i texted her.i said to her that she sold her self for money,that she is weak and alot more.she replyed to me with a long meesege saying that she did not ever cheat on me,that she has a clear consciousness and she did nothing wrong and that it wasnt my buiesnes,she said that she is with him about a week now and thats its not about the money 😛
she said to never call her again or anything.i was at that friends house when all of this was happening,and my friends wife came home(her best friend) and she left her phone on the table and went to put the kid to bed.she got a messege from my ex saying how she regrets every second with,what hurtfull thing i was saying and acting like a child.
so i am very pissed right now and very hurt and in a very deppressed state,i am broken again,i just cant belive what she did.its like he was her backup plan,for a safe future,i get that she is 30 now and doesnt have much time,but realy did not expect this from her,just the thought of them togheter alone i go crazy,i cant belive that this is happening right now,dont know what to do…
i think that its terrible what she did to me,and just dont get them to togheter,how it can work,i realy think its only for the security and nothing else,i hate her for that i just want to make her feel pain…
so this is history,its all over for good now,but the pain in me is very real again and stronger…
pls help!
hey friends ;D
her birthday is in thursday this week,she will be 30 so its kind of a big deal.
with my thinking now at the moment,i am not going to send her a text or call her to wish her a happy BD,i am hopping to get somekind of a emotional response from her,because i think that she is expeting a big text messege from me beacause i was acting realy needy and desperate before,then again it consedering her state of mind it would not surprise me if she se doesnt even react and doesnt give a f..k at all.
i hope that i can make it thru these couple of days and stay strong and not give in,but i realy wish deep inside me that i could have been a part in her life and share this moment togheter…its a real shame 🙁i was talking to our mutual friends (girlfriends) and they said to me that she will notice one day what she missed out on,but by then it will be to late,her stuborness wont let her cave in,she has some kind of a law in her mind and she will most likly never admit it to herself that she made a mistake.
im going to sleep now,working tomorow… feel free to share any thoughts 🙂
best of luck to all of u !BIG thx to everyone! realy you guys and girls are always a big help
I got a job,i quit smoking,i dont drink (maybe after a hard days work i drink one beer to congragulate myself 😉 ) i can see myself that i have improved very much over the past month or so…but stil that sadnes just wont go away…but i get it,sometimes its hard and sometimes its harder 🙂 i have to acept that,and do my best…
you all have been a big help and i truly thank you for that! 🙂
i am feeling very depressed some times,its like nothing in my life is making me happy,nothing is like i emagened it it will be some day.
then i think about how my ex is doing,and she is fine,she is not hurting,hanging out with friends,probably has a guy in plans or something,its like i dont want her to be happy its not fair…does that make me a bad person ?
i am trying my hardest to stay positive but its like one second im ok and feeling great and the next second im down and hate my life…i realy do understand that there are much bigger problems in the world but i just cant help but feeling sad for myself…
i just want her to miss me atleast,to ask about me sometimes…
she said that she doesnt love me anymore and that she is moving on but i still just cant accept it,i just cant!
