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Day 4 of NC, Round 2 (Round 1 was 25 days)

If anything, my conviction that I want him in my life has grown stronger, but I’ve also come to realize that there truly are plenty of fish in the sea and that losing one person does not mean you will not find another. Still. I struggle every single day, and I feel anger, sadness, and motivation that come in waves. Motivation that I definitely do have a shot at getting him back. Sadness that we are not currently together…I miss my best friend. Anger because I feel as though we have grown apart and anger because I am hurt. Each emotion can last three minutes or five hours–I just never know.

It gets easier in some ways, but not in others. I really miss him. I don’t need him back, but I will regret my part in the relationship’s end for a long time if I don’t get another opportunity.