Is it messed up for good?

Me and my boyfriend of 2 years broke up nearly two weeks ago. The duration of most of our relationship was joyful, as even he has said, but near the end, I started to discover that he was lying about certain things from mutual parties ( texting other females after an argument/break ,him and his female best friend making fun of me, lying about small issues ). Even though he is wrong for doing all of this, this happened near the ending of our relationship, and as a girlfriend I could be quite cold and harsh with him. Prior to this, our relationship had been the most happiest experience of my life.

After I began to glue pieces together , I confronted him. He cried , claiming he would change, which I believe he did, but because I was so angry our relationship ended in a bout of periods of me breaking up with him one day only to get back with him the next. Until one day, when I finally broke up with him ,he forced me to go through with it and blocked me on everything. In a fit of panic, I realized my menustraul was late, therefore I used that to my advantage, telling a mutual friend (his female best friend) about the possibility of me being pregnant, therefore he could unblock me and speak to me again. After it was discovered that I wasn’t pregnant, we got into an altercation , and it seems as if he sided with her. She claimed this was the “perfect” opportunity for her to get rid of me, so she obviously used that to her advantage as well. I realize what I did was extremely wrong, and it was all for his attention. Along with this, I tried other things to get him back, such as making fake accounts, visiting a mutual public place I knew he would be at, etc. a day after our breakup, I also found out that he had began seeing someone new (a self admitted rebound). Overall, this period consisted of me contacting his friends, them telling me he’s moved on, and me just overall acting out of desperation.

I ceased contact with him for a week, and after we began speaking again. He alternated between claiming he still cared to claiming he no longer cared about me, and there were times we would talk for hours at night to one word texts. This all ended when I attempted to rush him into deciding a friendship, which he refused to partake in, citing that there was no longer any trust. The final end to this attempt was when he stated he no longer wanted to become friends with me and that he highly disliked me, and we exchanged extremely hurtful words ( him saying he will never care about me again and no one will ever treat me as well as he did, me saying I hate him, speaking on his familt etc). Then I hung up.

The ending of this relationship may sound terrible, but the truth is that during this relationship we were extremely happy, but I believe my own personal mistakes and impatience have severely hurt any chances of this being reconciled. Not a day goes by without me missing him, and he even claimed on the phone himself that he feels a “void” is in his life, but now I have no idea where to go from here. Before these issues arose, we were both extremely happy, and both made some type of effort to revive the relationship, just unfortunately at different times. Any advice?