Pinkie

@patricia12 Thank you for your reply, appreciate that your took from your time to reply.
The thing is that I always feel he does not take the initiative to see each other too often. Moreover, during his exams we haven’t seen each other for 2 weeks. Yes, we had the last fight because of me telling him this..I mean..I did not have the expectation to see him every day during this busy period, but we could at least pick a coffee or something once in a while..
When he acts this way, I always feel the need to push him, to ask him to see each other more and to ask for more effort. And this seems to annoy him. He even mentioned that after he comes from work he just wants to relax ALONE at home, which made me feel not needed..
Then during our last fight he told me something like this: “This is me (without even mentioning this situation will change after the exams) and if you want to accept this life I will be happy to continue, if not, you know better and maybe you will find what you are looking for in someone else, althought it will be a big lose for me.” As if he wants to say that we will still keep the relationship distant and cold even after his exams. If he wants this relationship, why he refuses to change the things that are bothering me? Why he only expects me to adapt to him even if this means my needs are dismissed?

I am not crazy about contacting him, but if I lose him, I feel I lose someone good for me, someone different, someone that I could have a peaceful relationship with. I don’t need him, but I want him. But I want us to be closer, to spend more time together. While he prefers to spend alot of time alone…(even he does not see his family and friends too much). He told me that he talks to me more than his family and I am still not happy. He is the type who likes to do everything by his own and separate job, family, relationship, friends. While I am the type that wants to involve him in my activities.
I really do not know how to act next.

I should also mention that I have trust issues and I am going crazy if he does not text me once in few hours. Also I have the bad habit to sabotage my relationship. I often feel the need to argue, especially when things are too calm or they are not going the way I want.

Should I still message him to check in him? What if after some days he will keep the silence? Should I continue asking him about his exams, or should I want for him to text next time?