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But you see.. he was the one that initiated it, I told him originally let’s be friends and see what happens..
And I asked him if we were over for good or friends and see what happens (which is what I told him when we met up and talked) but he only kept saying just friends
So I broke no contact, I had a question as to why my electronic wasn’t working, and then someone told me he was talking about going out with a new girl and I told him “thank you for the good times sorry for the bad times but I hope it’s better with the new girl..” and he said “new girl?” And I explained to him what his friend told me and he said “all I said is I’d be willing to when I’m ready” and I said ok then he said “we’re not supposed to be talking so I’m going to go”.
“Kait, I have to talk to you about something. I’m sorry but I’m not happy with some aspects in my life. How it’s going is just something I’m not okay with and every single day I feel myself just finding things out about myself and coming to realizations about it. One of them is that I’m not happy being with you. It feels like it’s a task to take you places and to make you happy. This isn’t a jab at you or anything but please read on. As you know, I’ve been gaming more and spending less time with you and I realized this but it’s because I’m subconsiously realizing I’m not happy with our relationship.
I realized that after Carmen and almost every time we broke up, the only reason I got back with you is because I felt safe and comfortable with being with you. I know this seems like I’m contradicting myself by saying I want to be alone, but if I’m being honest with myself, this is what I want. I still want to be friends and not be enemies. I’m sorry but I just don’t feel myself wanting to being a couple anymore. I’m sorry and I hope you understand.“ this was his break up text..
Honestly, I wrote him a letter pretty much saying kinda what I told you guys, how I felt about all of this, and that when he’s ready he can call or text me anytime but I’m giving him what h wants. A break up. Because every time we’ve broken up I’ve always texted him scared to lose his interest. But I think texting him all the time never gave him an insight of me really being gone, so out of the five days we haven’t been together, I haven’t said a word for two, the other three days were something brief, like happy Fourth of July. Or he texted me asking what cologne I bought him, small simple quick stuff like that. But he hasn’t texted first out of these two days and not have I, and in my head I’m just worried, like I’m not sure how to feel. He likes my Instagram posts, looks at my stories. I’m not blocked or anything so that’s a good thing I suppose? But I just don’t know if he stills cares or he would want work..
