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Hey everyone. I’ve been reading your guys conversation for days now and it seems you guys are genuine. So I ask can you help me too. Situation She broke up with me a month ago for not loving her. When I went back pretty much begging, she said she was suprised I cared. So I said I wish her luck then she said that’s it? You ain’t going to fight for me. So I did and got her back 2 weeks later but we talked everyday so it was easy not to hurt so bad. Then 2 weeks later we got into a fight about moving in again with each other. So she broke up with me again. She said she needed time with NC. So I obviously ignored it and begged. So she said nothing you can do will change my mind. But let’s be friends and talk in a couple days. So I screw up because I get lonely, join a dating website. One of her friends find it and tell her. She immediately loses it on me. And says I hate you f words, you lost your last chance at being with me, and forget friends. 3 days later texts me sorry the things she said and wishes me luck, that we never be friends, and that I broke her heart. So I apologize and start NC for me. I cave in on day 4 and send a letter explaining how much thinking I did and that I afmit I have commitment issues. That I went to counseling and church. And pretty much saying I changed and I’m better. So she texts that she loves that I’m changing but don’t change for her because Were over. And continues with I broke her heart more than i will ever know. And that she will be my friend but she can’t talk with me because she’s still dealing with. And not to worry because God has a plan for everything. Don’t do anything dumb cause she’s worried about me. And ends with I’ll talk to you soon.