Dylan

Hello @Patricia12,

Thank you for your insight. Everything that you said makes a lot of sense to me. I feel like I have started to accept that this really is what needs to happen right now. It’s only fair for her to have the chance to live life and grow through experience as I did and all of us do. If she didn’t take this time then I’m sure there is a very good chance that these feelings would have manifested later at an even more difficult time.

For now all I can (and should) do is focus on myself and improving my life. I just got a nice raise at work earlier this week, I have been working out and training constantly and am going to the dentist today to have some work done. I did go see a therapist which I had never done before and I did find that to be helpful in moving past the hardest part of this split. I still miss her of course but I really want her to find what she needs through all of this. I plan to just work on building myself into a better version of myself for whatever comes next.

I really hate that I was so reactive in our last two interactions and I hate that it surely came off as needy or desperate. I really don’t feel like that is me or how I usually act. I was just caught off guard in an emotionally charged and confusing situation hopefully she understands that or will with time. If she ever does reach out I will make sure not to let that happen again and I will make sure to let her know that I support her decision to do this.

I agree with you and do not think that her mother’s realizations of past “mistakes” are a mid-life crisis I just meant that the part about wanting to leave her husband, family, and life for 6 months to go work on cruise ship seems like a bit of a rash decision to me… But then what do I know. Her mother seems like a truly wonderful person and I wasn’t intending to say anything negative or insensitive about her. I just thought it was worth mentioning as a possible background influence in my ex’s life.

Honestly writing all of this out has been extremely therapeutic and helpful in giving myself more perspective on the situation.

(Reposted for typo edits)