DepressionWon

Thank you for the reply.

For the desperatation: I mean crying, begging, trying to bargain. It wasn’t pretty.

She is seeing a therapist and has for four years.

I feel so awful still for getting mad at her. That was the worst thing I’ve done. I want to text her so badly and tell her I’ll be there for her and that I won’t push anything romantically until she feels ready, if ever.

I know that if I want to see her again as a partner, it would take quite a bit of time and out of my control. That said, I don’t want to cut her out of my life completely. We have feelings for each other.