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Hi guys, I’m new here. I want to ask for some help, because I’m really loosing it. We officially broke up 1 week ago, but I knew it’s coming somehow in my guts, so for me it’s more than 3 weeks of pure pain. I can’t sleep, I barely sleep few hours per night, I usually cry. I cry spontaneously during day, I’m in physical pain. I can’t focus on my work, it’s causing my a lot of trouble. Although I’m in NC and I don’t have her on any social network, I’m obsessed with her to the point where I google her name and I try to find something, I post regularly to different forums about what happened and I’m constantly going through everything what happened in my head. I believe she was really one of a kind and I will never ever in my life have another opportunity like this – and she said she felt the same. We are both 30+ old. I screwed it up somehow, because I was still involved with my ex (not romantically, just sorting some things out). I can’t forgive myself, I’m really beating myself I let this wonderful girl walk away from me. How should I cope with it? How can I function normally when I don’t see any point in doing anything knowing she will be not there in my life? It’s not like I need her or I can’t be happy without her – she was just the perfect, unique, extraordinary match to whatever dream I ever had about a woman.

(Details about our breakup are in my other post)