Update

I haven’t been on here for a long time, so I thought I would give an update on my situation.

So I have gone no contact again for the second time I have followed it very strictly this time and we have not talked since sometime in Febuary. Today I found out that she finally decided to change her relationship status on Facebook to in a relationship with the other guy. its been 3-4 months now I guess.

Honestly I dont know if I even truly want her back. I mean I get a sick feeling every time stuff happens and I remember things, but I really dont think I desire her anymore. Not after all she has put me through. Im not sure anymore to be completely honest.

I still love her (in a caring way) very much. No contact has been hard, but at the same time I think I have been pretty indifferent in wanting to talk to her. I know that if things happen between us it will be a long ways off (years) and I dont expect that or even want that. I just know nothing will happen anytime soon. I know that if she is not the one for me then someone 100x better is waiting for me out there. Someone who deserves my love and can give theirs just as much as me.

So yea, I just dont know what to say anymore to be quite honest and I have no Idea what I even want out of this post haha. I guess it is just kinda a rant. I hope things are going well for all of you out there.

Cheers to the last 5 years of my life with a girl who doesnt seem to care for me whatsoever! lol

Have a great night everyone.