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@Merchaunt I really pray that he can come to see that. My love for him inspired so much change in me, the last time we fought he said such horrible things and not once did I become angry or say anything back, I just kept pleading with him for us not to fight…I think he was finally taking out on me he ways I had hurt him. He even said that when we had two days of NC previously before that, he was glad I didn’t contact him, that he felt so relieved. That is how I fear he is feeling now, even though I know he was saying a lot of lies out of anger. Like he’s just like good riddance to bad rubbish. I am glad to have witnesses here of how much I love him…
@ChrisLovesChris Now i think my situation really similar to urs … coz my ex also hurt me so badly and telling me she dont care … i dont know whats going on in her mind ,., atm we dont have to think about that ,, if u think he loves u give him some time and after words there is some magic letters u can send to him anf maybe things gonna be different ,,,
@JeanValins I don’t even care about what my ex said…I actually hope it made him feel better…I would forgive him for anything. I know what it’s like to say things out of anger. I pray that time will help…
@ChrisLovesachris I had NC for 2 weeks before this new NC and my ex was angry that i didnt contact her for 2 weeks and she have no idea what i am doing she was pissed and fought with me again … so I am sure this month of NC will bring something even a little bit of care from her side … so this is ur turn do Nc and see … Usually men get angry fast but let them chill for hour or 2 they will be ok … so give em sometimes and again dont worry u can get ur Ex soon or later just try to be happy for now … its tough but you gotta try it
@JeanValins when you did the NC for 2 weeks was it because you had a fight? Did she try to contact you during that time?
@ChrisLovesChris My ex is kinda person who doesnt contact even if she misses me so badly … So this is my trouble here.. one day i have left her for 3 days when we were together .., she send nothing at all and when i came back she was pissed saying why u didnt contacted me … after this 2 weeks i send her a magic letter i found it by accident and i cuted the NC and sent it to her … her reaction was .. did you got engaged ?!
I was like wow .. it worked … i ignored her … she send me big letter saying that she never know what i am doing coz i used to do nothing and stuff like that ,,, even she the one who told me to not work and stay with her and only studying … if u go inside my head u will be lost in confusion … XDGood morning @JeanValins and everyone. I still feel sick this morning. It’s like what I ate last night didn’t digest and it’s just sitting there. I slept super weird again, strange dreams that I cannot remember. I can’t believe I am living this way. I have never been s unable to cope with something in my entire life. I don’t even know what to write this morning. I just feel sick and like I can’t take this anymore.
@ChrisLovesChris Dont worry coz i have felt the same … every dream i got is about her or see her with other person … its just sucks but after few u will notice that they even dont care and message u ,., even if u message them now it may hurt u and hurt them too so just wake up .. do some exercises … drink something warm to make ur stomach feel better … watch something funny like ( toilet pranks ) i swear u will laugh so hard … 😀 hope it will make u feel better
@JeanValins I will try to watch that on my phone since my work blocks youtube. I am drinking a smoothie that I usually make in the mornings and it just feels like my stomach is closed in a fist. I can’t live with the thought of never talking to him again. I’m scared I’m going to wind up committed to a hospital
@ChrisLovesChris Dont be weak or you will never get a chance to fix anything … try warm drinks in the morning … it will make ur stomach feel better … green tea and stuff really good … you will be good dont worry … my NC will end soon so i will tell you what gonna happened so just cheer up and cheer me please lol
@JeanValins I have never had this experience where I feel like I am going to throw up from anything I put in my stomach. It is truly horrible. I keep green tea at work so I will try that. I wish I could just take tranquilizers and stay in bed all day long. I wish I didn’t have to work. I feel like everyone can see in my eyes how messed up I am. When does your NC finish?
@ChrisLovesChris Staying at home for ur situations is bad so never do that … work to be busy and dont think about the breakup … i do have that feeling whenever i eat something i just want to throw up thats how i lost my weight … so just work on ur self to be postive and be happy .., think of good things always … my Nc will end next week ,,, i have no hope but gonna try at least
@JeanValins I am concentrating very carefully at work but it’s so difficult to get things done. Before I realize it I am staring into space. I’ve been at work for almost three hours and I haven’t gotten anything done. It’s scary. I did watch a toilet prank with the volume down and it was funny but now I am back to feeling ill. I am also exhausted because I slept for only four hours but I would almost rather be so tired than at full normal energy, that way maybe I have less capacity to have a panic attack.
I hope the completion of your NC goes well. I hope you will tell me all about it.@ChrisLovesChris U will get better day after day it just started 🙂 Whenever u feel ill remember lots of ppl feel the same as u do or even worst … u are strong girl 🙂 and i believe you will be better soon … just have fun and try to go shoping after work or see some new stuff … try watch new comedy movies and stuff until u get tierd and sleep .. think less and you will be fine 🙂
@JeanValins I’m scared because I do not feel better as each day goes by…instead I have been feeling worse. I am literally counting the minutes right now to my lunch hour so I can go to my car and cry like mad. I have come to see crying like throwing up for the heart and soul. For the first time I do not feel like shopping – and if you could see my credit card bills, that would really really shock you…lol. I don’t want to go anywhere, everywhere I go I think, last time I was here everything was “okay”, at least we were talking, even if it was a fake okay it was better than nothing! I will try to find things to distract me, and I am also taking steps to better myself and my life – I can’t bring myself to exercise right now (even though I am super fit and usually exercise at least an hour a day – I’m just not right now because I’m not eating) and I don’t want to think about hobbies, what I am referring to is deep changes, to myself, seeing a counselor, making amends with people I’ve hurt…I see how all those things are connected and I just want to make it all right…
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