@Oshi You gave him your apology, and now the next step is to fix that problem you have of rushing things (or whatever the problem is)! For me, I have to catch myself at EVERYTHING I would do and say wrong. It was hard at first and from time to time I have to bite my lip in order to not make a sassy remark. But it has become easier, and I honestly am getting wonderful responses towards his end and watching him improve along with it. You have to be confident and ready to make those changes. So now, just lay low until he texts you first again. Have him initiate the first meet up. When he does, be that person he fell in love with. Because 9 out of 10 chances you are that actual person he remembers, you just got so lost in not only his life but your own life as well which caused you to think twice. Just let things be and do your best to fix you!