No Contact : 3 weeks today

I was friends with my ex for 2 years before we started dating. A year and a half before we started dating, he said when he made a commitment to a relationship, it would be with someone who was a friend first. February 2014 when we were Seniors in high school, he asked me to be his girlfriend. He had a soccer scholarship from the university in town and I had offers to go play soccer in other states, but I stayed here. We both fell hard and he told me he loved me the first month and was already talking about marriage, and I was the one. He was a huge player before he committed to me. He had slept with several girls but never had a relationship. He said I “changed him” and we were enjoying our the next step in our relationship. Over the past 11 months, we have had a few rocky points. He did not like my friends and did not like me partying without him. I am really not a big partier as it is but he would still get mad. This caused several arguments. Then, he cheated on me in July, 5 months into the relationship. That was almost the end. He didn’t sleep with her and told me about it as soon as it happened. He apologized to my parents and my family face to face in person and did everything he could to keep us together. I was hurt but felt like he deserved another chance. It took about 8 weeks for us to be back where we were but we seemed ok. Then college started. He had been working out with the soccer team but said he hated it and wanted to give it up. He did and said he was a lot happier. But, he started to change physically and emotionally. He had had the scholarship since he was a sophomore in high school He went from being a well known soccer player to a regular person. He was the king of his world. I think he had an identity and he lost it. I don’t think he knew who he was anymore. We started fighting more often and he would say things that weren’t nice. Other times we would get along fine. He started growing his hair out and seemed like he wasn’t happy with me or anything really. We still had some good times but we took a week break in October. He broke up with me on Thanksgiving but got back together 2 weeks later right before Christmas. He said he couldn’t stand the thought of me being with another man. He was my first sexual experience. I was not his. Then 3 weeks ago, he broke up with me again. He said we got back together too soon and he needed time to figure things out. This time he didn’t talk about getting together again. At the 1 week NC mark, I was playing an indoor soccer game and I happened to be playing his best friends coed team. He was in the audience. His hair was cut and he looked really good. I was devastated and almost left, but I played the game and walked out the door after not saying anything to him. I held back the tears until I got outside. I could see him looking at me out of the corner of my eye but I didn’t make eye contact. He didn’t follow after me or contact me since. I am heart broken. I have loved him for so long I think he is the one. He did too at one point but I think he really is lost and needs to find himself. Should I continue no contact and let him contact me first? I know it may be a long time but he said if we were meant to be together we would be. What should I do from this point?
Soccergirl