May have messed up first meeting

In my message I brought up good things from the past. She was happy to hear from me and said she missed me. She said she feels the same way about the past when things were good, and said she misses the way we were, and said we should talk about that (whatever that means). She said she wants to talk on the phone and have lunch with me.

However, she suggested she is still with the guy, and that he will know it when we have lunch or talk. Also, from something she said, I have a feeling she wants to put me in the friend zone. I suppose time will tell what happens here.

I met her for dinner.

Predictably, she’s had serious issues with her relationship. They are on a break right now. It was his idea to split like this, but she told me the time apart made her realize she doesn’t want him back. They haven’t moved in together yet but he has some stuff at her place, still has a key and such, and there is other baggage to unravel that could take a while.

After dinner she suggested that she doesn’t want the evening to end. I wanted to test if she was serious so once outside I moved in to kiss her and she kissed back passionately. At least I wasn’t in the friend zone. We went to my place and she spent the night.

I talked to her today. I’m not sure yet what will happen. She may just have needed a night with me to realize she wants to go back to her boyfriend, or maybe this will help her end things with him because she has realized she was rebounding. And not only was she rebounding with him, he was rebounding with her too, worse than she is.

In any case I don’t know that we will get back together, or that we even should. I made no promises except to say that we can see each other again. I know I need to be really careful from here. The jury is still out as to whether she will get back with her boyfriend or not. If she does, then it’s time for me to be gone for good.

I saw her again on Sunday and we talked a bit. We agreed to take it show and see how things go. I would not say we are officially back together. I don’t know if this is going to work out or not, as I am not sure that she has changed enough. Time will tell. She may also go back to her boyfriend too. It’s very early to tell.

I am having flowers delivered to her on V-day. It seemed like a good idea when I ordered them yesterday, but now I am wondering if it’s too much too soon. Oh well, what’s done is done, and we’ll see how that plays out.

She did like the flowers. We’ve been talking and seeing each other when we can.

Today she said it. She told me she wants me back. She said she has wanted me back for a while but only today has she mustered the courage to tell me.

I am still skeptical, but opening up gradually. I told her that I think we should keep seeing each other and keep talking. I told her that I don’t intend to see other people. It wasn’t quite the answer that she wanted but she is alright with it.

Update: We are together again. We have been for 6 weeks. She has changed and is being pretty good. I don’t know how long it will last this time, but of course, “permanently” is the goal, otherwise what is the point?