Made a mistake

@kaila

I text him and I shouldn’t have. Was just normal conversation but it was so cold. Just makes me realise that he doesn’t care anymore, he doesn’t care that we broke up and I just feel lost now. I don’t know what to do. I was going to send him a letter but I think I’m just going to hurt myself more now. I think I need to give up 🙁

@kaila
Because he just wasn’t being normal. He was just being really quiet and not wanting to talk. I shouldn’t have text him, I was so weak.
I am just really missing him at the moment 🙁

@minniexx 18 days NC. Our relationship was about 6 months in total, not as long as some people on here but just as meaningful. The reason we broke up was because we BOTH were just not feeling it anymore, except he was the one who had the courage to do it. However, I’ve since realised that I was not in a good place when we were together (nothing to do with our relationship) and the way I was behaving, no wonder the guy went off me! It’s just trying to make him see that actually, I am back to being myself again, and actually there would be no faults in our relationship if it was to come back. But I can’t make him realise that.
He instigated conversation with me on Monday, emailed me at work. A bit of banter, nothing major though. I have a letter ready and waiting in my bad to send, I was going to send it on Monday but then he emailed me. So it’s just in my bag at the moment lol. I will probably send it at the end of the week. I think everyone is different and their situations and some might say it’s too soon, but it is the vibe I am getting off him now that I don’t want to leave it toooo much longer.

@minniexx my letter isn’t about getting back together or anything like that 🙂 It is me accepting the break up and telling him that I accept it and understand why he did it (I didn’t react very well when he broke up with me) and me explaining where my head was at in our relationship before. It’s just to clear the air more than anything so we can see if we can establish a friendship or not. But I’m not actually sure if I want to be friends with him lol. I would definitely be able to hold my emotions around him 🙂

I don’t really know how to suggest meeting up to just hang out, I don’t really want that to be my suggestion as he may think that I will be hoping it’s for more etc

@minniexx It didn’t take me long to realise that I had messed up this relationship, and that I had been stuck in a really dark place. Straight away I went back to my exercise class, I went and saw a counsellor and just got myself out of the rut that I had got stuck in. So this is why he needs to see that I am back to being the woman I was when we first met. It was only towards the end of our relationship that I got depressed, I started taking medication that didn’t agree with me and completely messed my head up. Even though I stopped taking it, the affects of it still stayed with me. Which is also what I explain to him in my letter lol.

I’m not saying that I will be able to be good friends with him, I won’t want to know about new girlfriends and all that. But I’d like to see if we can establish something. So just by hanging out a bit can determine which way it will go. But I don’t want to suggest it lol