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Yes.. luckily but I think she mentioned something about him visiting her every 2 weeks or something but I think that was if they came together which I don’t think they have ^^
I feel the very same way.. I knew everything about her and what she was doing and now I .. idk.. I have to ask for it and there is also a lot that I don’t know but I’d like to know..
It sure does sound evil but hey.. do what helps you getting her back or over her ;D
Good luck with it anyways! 😀huh.. I think it’s quite odd that she gained weight but seems like she worked on herself just like we did. She got more courageous which is definitely good for her.
My ex is a model to me..although she always worried about her weight – but which woman doesn’t 😀Good that you aren’t down as much anymore! 🙂
Did your thoughts to that girl ever change during or after the relationship?
I myself am quite down when I think of her. Even when doing something with my friends or having a great experience, I’m like: “I’d give anything to share this moment with her”.
I do know what caused the breakup and I did change those things and also now I am aware of them and I would notice it if something like that happens again. Probably even before it actually happens. But the main problem is that she does not want to give me another chance. She is afraid that I might behave the same way after some time and that she has to suffer from it again. I do understand her but it cripples me and my heart that she just refuses to try again. Now that both of us improved ourselves and learnt from our mistakes. Especially I did.. a lot..To be honest I have a bit of a weird relationship to my friends. We have really funny moments together and share a lot but we never really talk(ed) about very private stuff. I now slowly started with it and it still feels a bit strange but it gets better with time ^^
Meeting her is definitely the best choice.. there very well might be a lot of heartache afterwards but you have to try it…
haha good job on your weight ! 😀
So.. today my ex came back from London and she arrived in Berlin and had to take a bus to her city. While she was on the bus I thought I’d give it a try and tell her about me and how I think about us and how I changed now and it actually made her think and she was insecure about her decision and that’s everything I could’ve wished for. When she arrived at home she went to bed immediately because she was tired which was fine aswell. I think I did a good job with not mentioning the relationship / breakup while she was in London but having fun with her and now showing her again how important she is to me. She even said: “I don’t know what to say.. it’s incredible how much you want all that.. but … I was so unhappy so often…” and also “It also hurts me to read all that and it makes me feel insecure”. I hope I kind of got through this barrier of hers which says “This is a definite decision. Nothing will change. Don’t trust him. He will hurt you.”
Let’s see what happens tomorrow..
If she doesn’t mention it I’ll try to be a good friend again tomorrow and just make her have a great time again and not make her feel bad about us.I still miss her so much…every day
-Andi
I think your ex is building walls around herself. She is afraid of a new relationship because she is insecure, and she is insecure because she still doesn’t know whether the break up was a right decision or not. She sees your changes, but she couldn’t really experience them – yet. I think she needs time. And you have to build a safety feeling for her. Her emotions are mixed up. An evidence for it is that what she is doing with the other guy. She sleeps with him, goes to London with him, but nothing more. That’s because she is confused. Honestly, I don’t know if it is right to talk with her or not. Maybe she needs time to stabilize her feelings, but maybe if she talks with you it will make her sure that you’re the right for her. If I were you, I would talk to her, but not too much. And I would be really aware of the “40%-60%” chat rule. It means that you send nearly equal amount of messages to each other. If you send too much, she’ll think that you are too needy, but if you send less she’ll think you don’t care about her. And it’s 40-60, not 50-50 because it’s hard to maintain a conversation if you talk exactly the same amount, because sometimes you have to write more in hope for more reply.
The superficial friendship thing is familiar for me. That’s why I usually separate my two circle of friends. There are people that I meet everyday (schoolmates, people living nearby) with who I have kind of a friendship, but we just always talk about everyday things, or about a certain topic that comes up, nothing deep or personal. That’s why I call it superficial, because they don’t know me really and don’t know my most inner personality. On the other hand, there are the other kind of people: most of them are in the group chat, and maybe they live at the different parts of the country, and maybe we meet not so often, but at least I have a really deep and personal friendship with them. And basically that’s why I’m still planning to move to the capital after high school, even without my ex, because I would be closer to them. In Hungary, quarter of the population lives in the capital and in the surrounding areas, so it’s obvious that some people from that group lives there too.
My thoughts to that girl? Yes, they changed. But only in the level of friendship. I’ve said that she helped me the most after the break up, and when I did the disappearing stuff on Facebook she was the first to call me on phone and she worried about me a lot. So yeah, our friendship obviously became tighter.
She is a really attractive and pretty girl, but I have no romantic or “more than friends” feelings for her 😀Today my ex sent me 2 pictures of her on Snapchat again. I’ve said that on Snapchat you only see a certain picture for some seconds, and if you make a screenshot with your phone, the person who sent the picture will see what you’ve done. And of course, I don’t want my ex to see that I saved the picture what she sent. However, today, I’ve found a solution: I grabbed my old phone, and when I opened the picture, I immediately took a photo of the picture with its camera 😀
In in the last post I’ve told you that I was bout to go to the filming yesterday… Well, we did not manage to organize it very well, so there was nothing. It is postponed to the weekend. But today was the last day of the break, and on weekend I’ll have to learn a lot. I have so much things to do 🙁 However, I’m not looking forward the summer. There’s no school during almost the whole summer, so I’ll have a lot of free time for sure, but a lot of things were planned to the summer with my ex 🙁 One week long “meeting” without parents, common holiday in Croatia (she would have gone with my family, but we would have had a separate room), and tons of events and other programs.
And unfortunately, I’ll have more time to think about things… I mean in the level of overthinking. There’s more than one month left until the school-free summer break, I know, but considering that after two and a half months I still have really huge down-periods, I just simply can’t expect great things from summer.So, In the past few days I got to know that the school project filming stuff will be on this weekend.
On the last weekend, I had very painful feelings again. My problem is not with the presence of the feelings, because it’s totally natural that they exist after a break up, but with the fact that they are still pretty strong after almost 3 months!!! My mood is still swinging. Sometimes I feel that how good it would be if we got back together, but sometimes I think that I should move on. Sometimes I think I’m able to think with a clear mind, and know what would be the best, but then a strong down-period comes and my feelings and thoughts are colliding. And the problem with all these things is that I don’t know what a meeting with her could trigger in me in this unstable state of my mind.
In this week, I’m having a lot to do, so hopefully, I’ll not think of her that much.Strange and weird pictures on Snapchat are still coming. There was one in which she was holding a dumbbell in her hand (the little one, especially for women), and she wrote “Workout-time! :)”. T thought that she has stopped training. I don’t know how seriously she does it. But I checked her some times at Facebook Messenger after I’ve got the picture, and she was active all the time. Either she didn’t take it seriously, or she sent the picture after the workout (however, she didn’t seem like somebody after an exhausting training).
On the group chat, she acts normally now. Not chasing me, and not sending fierce messages. She doesn’t really talks to me at all, just in a basic level. You know, if there’s a group conversation (either in real life or on the internet), you usually say something, at least a few words to every participants.
@Nedim
Hey sorry for the lack of messages in the past few days. Sadly i have a lot to do so i just dont have the time to write but i just wanted to let you know that i’m till here!-Andi
It’s good to see that you are still there! 😀 I’m looking forward your next update. I hope you will have some time later 🙂
If something new or special will happen in my case, I’ll keep up writing posts.
Actually, today there was a little happening. One person from the group chat asked if us if we are still together. But right in the group chat, in front of the others! It was a little awkward. I don’t replied to that, and she did neither. Instead, I wrote a private message to the girl who asked this question. She knows my ex well, they have been friends since several years. I told her the story of break up, and she said “it’s typical her”. Under that, she means, that it’s due to her lifestyle. I think I’ve never known my ex really really deep inside.
By the time I finished writing here, she replied “nope” with a “:D” smiley. I’ve told you. She is weird.@Nedim
Im sorry that we didnt have contact for quite some time now.. but ill try to catch up now 🙂So..
Yes she deffenitely is building walls. She litterally told me today that i’m just not the type of person that she’s looking for, which i think is kind off bullshit since i obviously was that for more than a year! So why shouldnt i be that again?
Sadly she says that she doesnt see a way to go back and she told me that she is happy now which she wasn’t with me at the end. Sadly that is true..
I didnt ask her if she loved that other guy but it seems like it.. i hope its a rebound relationship if it is a relationship at all… 🙁
At the moment i have contact to her everyday and just yesterday she was going out with some friends and she wrote me that she misses the physical contact with me. I guess thats the most that i can pray for at the moment.. :/
I am afraid that if i would stop the contact with her again she’ll forget me again. I might feel better afterwards but i guess it would make it impossible to have a new relationship.
I feel like i might lose her 🙁We decided to meet up on the 29th and since there is a “big” firework in my city i hope that i can get her to go with me to that. The firework is the ending of a amusement park that is always here in may and i am planning to take some rides with her and have a great time and then at night watch the firework and go for a walk if that’s possible.
I will try to have as much fun with her as possible and maybe have a romantic scene in the ferris wheel.. who knows what might happen 🙂About her and the other guy again, she told me that she can now share her hobbies with him and what not and when i told her that i also got interested in music(als),culture, literature and also partying she said that that doesn’t matter anymore and i could even bevome a musical artist and it just would not work out because i am not the type of person she is looking for (which i still disbelieve!)
I asked her if she thinks that he would fight for her as much as i do and she said “no because he is like me. He would try a few times but then accept my decussion because love has to come from both or it won’t work out. When you know that it is the right person then you dont have any doubt.” I dont know what to think about that. Obviously everybody has doubts in their relationship and exactly that behavior makes me think that it is “just” a rebound relationship because
#1 now she has someone to share her hobbies wirh, which makes her feel good.
#2 he treated her better than i did in the end. I am not proud of that but it happened and i wish i had given her everything but i just didnt see it. But now i do!
I pray that during her time in london she has a lot of distance to him and has a lot of contact with me :/
I also hope that i can visit her for a few days over there..
i really dont want to sound like a douchebag but i kind of hope that they argue quite a bit and that she talkst to me because of that. I want to be there for her and i dont want him to be there for her!Actually i cant believe that 2 (!!!)months have passed since the breakup. It feels like we were together just last week..
And even more incredible is that fact that she will be longer in london than we are now single!
I think that is somewhat crazy!
but it also gives me hope that during her time in london even more can happen and she might love me again.i dont know why but i never had this REALLY in depth bond to friends of mine.. just to the girl i love..my ex
I somehow generally have those big emotional bonds to other persons. I really love my family but sometimes we dont have a lot of contact for maybe even a month. Thinking about it makes me feel like i am weird and my ex also didnt understand why i dont talk to my friends about that in depth stuff or why i have a bit of a weird relationship to my dad for example.. i dont know.. i guess that’s just who i am. As long as i have this in depth bond to my girlfriend everything is fine ^^What kind of pictures did she send? ^^
Oh i am sorry for that.. did you have the filming yet now? 🙂
i also wanted to travel around with my ex.. especially today at my birthday i though a lot about how much i would like to be with her at a sandy beach now and drink alcohol and listen to music and dance and you know.. have a great time.. i also would love to travel during the summer with her but since i cant do that with her anymore i just really hope that i can visit her in london! 🙂
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Now to your second post ^^
—–I know exactly how you feel and i am absolutely sorry for you 🙁
Today i am really down myself and especially after she told me about how happy she is with him and that i am not the type she’s looking for… i felt like crying from time to time 🙁
To make me feel better i took her shirt out of the box i keep it in and put it on a pillow. My heart is now melting.. that’s the second time that i grabbed it out of that box and i feel like absorbing the smell and never letting go of it again..
i fill my lungs with the air that comes trough the shirt and it’s just.. wow..The fact that i had alreaddy forgotten her about a month ago gives me strength that i know that i am not completely lost without her. Altough i feel like i am..
i just dont find joy anymore in the things that i do. All the time i think to myself how great it would be if i could share this very moment with her.
i guess as long as we dont move forward we will always have ups and downs and we will never be sure what the right thing to do is going to be BUT i also think that i just have to set my mind into getting her back because i KNOW how good it’s going to feel and hopefully be.Hm well maybe she didnt workout at all but sent the picture.. who knows. But atleast she tries to do so and i guess thats a good thing! 🙂
So there is’nt really a topic that you talk about with her?
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Message #3:
—–Huh.. don’t feel down because of that “:D” if you do. I think that smiley was some kind of self protection so she doesnt seem vulnerable to the others.
I feel quite a relief now that i wrote all that and again, im sorry that i wasnt able to write sooner!
Best of luck!-Andi
@nns91
Hey, i’ll gladly check your post but i cant post anything myself atm since its already 6 am and i still havent catched a lot of sleep ^^@Nedim
One more thing.. when i talked with her today she also said that she doesn’t want to give him up for me. She doesnt want to lose what she has now 🙁
..but i want to provide what she wants :/i guess thats why its sooo hard for her to give me a second chance.. 🙁
@Andi Whoah, good to see you there again! 😀
I think you talk too much with your ex about the relationship. Or maybe I’m wrong, but that’s what I got from the description. Be aware that you may annoy her with these questions.
I think that now, she definitely sees that you want her back, and thus she could easily manipulate you. Maybe the things that she told you are not true, but she is so really insecure that she wants you to see thing in that way. I’m sure that deep inside she is considering the relationship with you. Maybe at the moment she would say a strong ‘no’ to it, but I’m pretty sure that you are still special to her and you are on option for her. Well, the word “option” doesn’t sound really well I know, because back in time you were the only one for her, but… eh. You have to cope with it. Actually, it’s a good piece of news that you are still an option!
And why I think that it’s true is that in my opinion she wouldn’t talk to you, or wouldn’t listen to you or wouldn’t willing to meet with you if she was over you or considered you as “100% no”.The firework idea sounds really good! 😀 It will be very romantic. And these kind of romantic events are really good helpers in making the good atmosphere for you.
Recently, I don’t get pictures from my ex. I’m planning to send one to her, and I’ll see what she reacts: starts to send a lot of pictures again or not.
Oh, yes, we had the filming on last Sunday! 😀 I haven’t seen the scenes yet, because I’m waiting for the guy who owns the camera to send the files to me – because like last time, I’ll edit the video. I’m really excited and really looking forward the result! When it will be finished, I’ll send it to the group chat and ask the people there to say their opinion about it.
In these days, I’ve talked a lot with the other girl (who I’ve mentioned a lot) about break up. Both about my case and her case. Actually, it all started when she texted me and asked me how I’m doing after the break up, and how much am I over her. I honestly told her the truth, that it hasn’t really got better for 3 months. I was really surprised, because then she said that she is still suffering as well – after 7 months!!! And her relationship only lasted for 4-5 months, not 7 months like mine, or more than one year like yours. And her situation is very similar to mine – she still thinks about her ex, she is not mad at him, doesn’t hate him or anything, so, it just faded away. But it still hurts for her – which is interesting, because she was the one who broke up! Her ex was her very first partner and true love, just like in my case.
She said that according to her idea either very very long time (more than 1 year) can erase the pain, or a new relationship, a new true love, which is at least as strong as the previous. And actually, I think she is right.
It’s so bad that we are so close friends, but we still can’t help out each other really, just discuss things, and still suffer.I think you’re right that the smiley was just some kind of defense. But it was a really awkward situation. At the current point, I wish she wasn’t in the group chat. It’s not only taking pain to me, but she is also becoming more and more irritating to me.
But what’s strange is that despite of becoming more irritating and drifting more apart from me, I still think that we could be a good couple. I don’t know if it’s just from the pain, and it’s only a desire, or it’s really a realistic theory.
I think I have to figure out it with the next step, what I’ve mentioned before. It’s meeting with her. I can see two ways: after the meeting, things will come clear, I’ll know exactly what I want, or everything will be just more messed up. But I’ll take that risk. I just have to find a date with my friend, who would organize the party.The worst thing with this whole recovery after break up thing is the waiting. We have to wait so much to see things clearly, for something new happening. We must have lot of time for lot of things that happens slowly, but the whole world is rushing so fast around us.
P. S. When I started to type this post it was afternoon. Now it’s night, and during that time, I’ve received a new picture from her. It was just a regular picture, showing a coffee and a book, with a text “#chilling”.
P. S. #2: Whoohoo, this is the 100th post in the topic! 😀Yes I probably do annoy her but I just can’t help it.. from time to time I just have to ask questions because I’m looking for answers. I know that I annoy her with them after some time but yeah… idk :I
Well I told her multiple times that I want her back and that I love her because when we met last month I didn’t feel like that. I didn’t really care at first and she noticed that immediately and later told me that she felt a little hurt and thought that I didn’t take it seriously at all. Now since I have that much contact with her I am completely honest with her about my feelings and thoughts.
I even showed her my diary so she understood why I did what I did. That was a good choice because she was still very angry at me for cutting the contact but then she understood. But yeah.. that was all about a month ago ^^I think so too that she considers a relationship with me but my guess is that she is too afraid to give up what she now has. So I “just” have to provide what she missed in me in the first place to make her comfortable again by my side.. I really hope I can finally show her how I have changed on the 29th. I want to make her happy… happy with me..
What kind of picture are you thinking about sending her?
Cool 🙂
Maybe your ex reacts this time 🙂It’s really good that you have her to talk about it! 🙂
She still loves him but doesn’t want the relationship anymore?
Well.. my problem is that as soon as I REALLY want something well.. I REALLY want it.. 😀
I don’t let go then anymore. I guess that’s the only reason I made it into a relationship with her in the first place. I loved her for about half a year and she didn’t ^^
Now it’s kind of similar.. I take strength from REALLY wanting her.. it’s what keeps me going.“If you can dream it, you can build it” that’s my thought.. ^^
That’s why I think it’s important for you to meet her again at that party or somewhere else so you know if you see the right thing. 🙂Yes I know exactly how you feel.. I still can’t believe that I’m single now for 2 months and even worse she is away for 3 months.. even longer than we are now single and there already happened so much in just 2 months..
Luckily I am quite persistent and tireless so I have the endurance to just wait.I think we are doing a good job here 😀
Sorry, I have absolutely no time 🙁 I’ll come again on the weekend.
Wish you the Best till then! 🙂Huuuuh! I’m back! 😀 Finally, finally, finally, I have time again – and what’s more, it seems that there will be no more very busy periods!
My days were very boring recently. Nothing happened. Just learning, cutting the video, making the webpage, and there was only a slight activity in the group chat.
My ex stopped sending me pictures again. She only sends pictures of her little brother. Usually I don’t like babies and young children (he is 2 years old) but he is a cute on 😀 I remember that my ex told me how he had been saying my name even before I’d met with him. And after I’ve met with him, he was often missing me. I wonder how my ex explained this situation to him.
Tonight, my ex went to bed early, she said (to the group chat) she was in a depressive mood. I wonder why. She sent a song to the chat: it was the song that she also sent to me on the day before the break up.
As far as I know, nothing special happened to her nowadays.
Now that I’m less busy, I’Ll have to think about meetings. I mean, in connection with the group chat, not only in connection with my ex (But she is a part of the group so she will be there as well). One possibility is a party, that I’ve mentioned, and the other is a bigger meeting. The group holds meetings annually to where anyone can go but the community of the party would be a more intimate circle from the group.
Actually, I’m afraid of the annual meeting. It’s a very special event for me. There were only 2 yet, but both of those two days are the best days of my life. And if my ex would be there on the next one, she may spoil it for me, and I really don’t want that!
Actually, that’s way I want the party thing to happen before the bigger meeting. After that, I would know what to expect, and if I think that there are good chances that she will spoil it for me, I’ll try to pick a date when she is busy and she can’t go. I know that’s evil, but… I would rather be evil as hell than spoil this huge occasion 😀About the other girl: I guess she is in a similar situation like mine. She is still suffering, but she is not in love with her ex anymore, however, if her ex would stand next to her saying that he loves her, she would consider a new relationship with him.
Personally, I think I won’t move on from this point from this point where I am right now. Of course, until the meeting with her. Now, I’m stuck in this place since several weeks. I don’t like who she has became, but if a meeting would end up positively, I would consider a reunion with her. And of course, I still feel the pain. Sometimes too much 🙁You’re right, we’re doing a great job here! 😀 It’s better than a diary. I can come here and write out my thought about my ex and my plans. All the other people who I know would be extremely bored If I told all these things to them 😀
You’re lucky that you can gain power from wanting her back. Be determined and self-confident! You have to mediate between keeping up contact and not being too needy, which is a really hard thing to do.
You’re right that your ex is afraid of giving up what she has now – even if she has nothing. She has lost you. You have been the most important thing in her life for more than 1,5 year. Even if she doesn’t love you now, it’s still hard for her to cope with this loss.
Any new happenings since I was away? 😀@Nedim
great 😀
yes I feel you.. I had my finals so there wasn’t a lot happening for me either but learning ^^
How did the video turn out? 🙂
Her brother remembers me of my EX`s dog.. yeah.. weird comparison but I was one of the very few people her dog liked even though I don’t like dogs.. ^^
Maybe she misses you but doesn’t feel like she can come back to you. Or she just misses the physical contact and actually doesn’t want a relationship.. you have to find out what’s going on in her mind. When are you thinking to have this party or the meeting? 🙂
It’s a good Idea to have 2 of those “gatherings” so you know what might happen for the second one 🙂It’s weird I don’t feel as much pain anymore but I still want her back like crazy. I’ll have to see what happens on Friday I guess..
haha yes that’s true.. I wouldn’t be able to talk that much about her with my friends either 😀
I feel like she doesn’t have a big interest in writing with me and today I told her that I find it weird that we don’t talk about certain topics anymore like discussing future plans or I don’t know.. maybe politics or something… anything. Right now we are just writing silly stuff. Like.. it’s not even very funny but completely mindless and always just 1 or 2 messages until she goes offline for 0,5-2 hours again without saying anything. Actually that’s quite funny because about a year ago she was furious when she wrote with people and they just stopped writing and went offline and now she does that all the time. There is not a single time she stays online for more than 20 minutes. It’s super annoying but hey.. what am I supposed to do, right? ^^
I think I might not go online on Facebook tomorrow and won’t write her until she writes me just to see IF she would write me and when.. like.. would she even notice or would she worry at all?
Might be quite interesting to find out.Anyways.. I’m still quite curious how things will turn out on Friday. I don’t think she will get back to me that day.. definitely not.. but hopefully I come closer to her again because I do feel quite apart from her and I want to change that so maybe I can go and visit her in London when she’s there.
I want her back.
I want to be there for her again.
I want her to be happy.
I want to fight.-Andi
damn it.. tomorrow is the day I meet my ex and she doesn’t want to watch the firework with me -.-
now we are just going to drink a coffee or maybe at least go swim in the lake near her grandparents but still.. damn..today she wrote that it feels strange to come to my city without me waiting for her at the trainstation. So.. I guess she’s not over me which means I can still do it!
Let’s hope for the best..-Andi
I was so naive when I said that the busy period is over… There’s only one week left from school and still I have to learn for chapter tests and final exams -_-
But now, I have some time 🙂So, in these days I’ve finished the video with my classmates. It’s really good! 😀 But I haven’t show it to my ex. Maybe later. I’m waiting for the right time.
Recently, my ex is more kind and more “normal” with me on the group chat. And I don’t know why. But I started to have fun with her, and we have good conversations. It might be confusing, but by conversation, I mean only some messages. And only on the group chat. I have not talked with her in private for one and a half month.
It’s strange that some times ago it hurt much when I had a fun time with her, but now I don’t have this feeling. Maybe slowly (really really extremely slowly) but I’ll get over her, even if it’s need some time.
The party would be on the middle of June, and the bigger meeting would be on the middle of July (or maybe at early July).Last night my ex was at a party, and she was drunk – again. It was weird. It seemed like she is proud of that. But I think I’ve already told you that she didn’t really like alcohol, because she has really bad experiences with it. Now, she drinks regularly again. It’s an other bad factor why I don’t like her. I think she changes in the bad way.
I saw a full-length picture of her again, and… no. No changes in her weight again 😀 So I don’t know what the hell did she do with those weights when she sent that picture. Actually, I think she has got more weight.
An other thing is that she often boasts with her achievements. For example, she managed to get invited to a festival as a vip, and she says this in a really annoying way. However, I still find chatting with her good and fun, which is strange. It seems like that these annoying and bad-factor things don’t bother me as much as they did, but I don’t know why.
My status is still the same: if there was a chance to get back together, I would consider it, and most likely I would get back with her, but if I got to know that there are absolutely no chance, it would hurt like hell, and I would be really depressed.
Actually, recently two things are going through my mind over and over about this whole “ex-thing”: the story of my sister and the things that I’ve talked about with the other girl. It’s really upsetting to see that after 7-8 months she still suffers. Her suffering period is longer than the relationship itself! And I fear that the same will happen to me.Some bad news: water got into my phone, so it’s totally unusable 🙁 If all my pictures were lost, I would be extremely depressed. There is so much memory in that phone. And of course, the most important ones are the pictures in connection with my ex. Maybe she is not my girlfriends anymore, but I don’t want to lose these memories.
As I’ve mentioned, nowadays, I have a lot to do, but it has a good side as well: I have less time to think about her. It’s strange , becasue it didn’t always work for me, but this time, it seems like it works, and I really dont’think about her that much. After this busy period, I’ve planned some other changes in my life and in my lifestyle, with which I can get further occupation. For example, I’ve already bought a drawing tablet 😀 It was on sale, and I’ve been wanting one for a long time, so I said, uhm, why not? I’m not really into drawing, but I like to design things and make art stuffs in PhotoShop and other places, so it’s an adjustment in my works. But I’Ll also try drawing with it. So, I’ll definitely occupy myself with it in the first days of the summer 😀
The second round of the writing competition is also coming up, and in connection with writing, I’m also planning to write a novel in the summer.
About sports, I’ve said that I did not really achieve anything with the work out at home – so in the summer, I’m going to swim. Long time ago I did swimming, so that’s why I chose it, it won’t be totally unknown.
Next year, I’ll move to the capital and I want to live in a flat, not in a dorm, and I don’t want to borrow all the money from my parents, that why I’ll attend a summer job (for the first time in my life 😀 ).What you wrote about talking is really true for my case as well. We used to talk about absolutely everything, but know, just common everyday topics on the group chat, and it’s kind of sad to see that :/
How was your day with her? Did you managed to meet with her to at least drink a coffee?
And what about your conversations? Do you still talk with her regularly?
Hope everything is fine between you and your ex!P. S. Sorry for not being active for a long time. When this week ends, there will be only one week left from school, so I’ll definitely have more time to write more often 😀
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