I think it's really over between us. Time to move on.

My ex and I have been together for a little over a year, but sadly we broke up almost 5 months ago. We broke up because I was feeling ignored, unappreciated, and his father did not want us to be together. When I broke up with him, he didn’t fight for me. He just watched me leave. I didn’t think that he cared at all. We didn’t contact each other until I reached out to him about a week ago.

Here’s how it went:
Me: Hey
Him: Who’s this?
Me: (My name). Are you (his name)?
Him: Yes
Me: Oh ok. How are you?
Him: Good. What about you?
Me: That’s good. I’m good as well.
Me: I decided to reach out cause I thought of you. I understand if you’re still mad at me.
Him: Yeah, I understand.
Me: And also I wanted to tell you that I miss you. You can ignore if you want. I just want to be honest.
Him: It’s cool.
Me: Okay cool.

I reached out to him again 3 days later with the “elephant in the room” approach:
Me: Hey, good afternoon.
Him: Hey
Me: How’s your summer going?
Him: Good. What about you?
Me: That’s good. It’s going great, thank you. There’s something that I want to say.
Him: Then by all means say it
Me: I want to apologize for what happened between us. I realized from that moment I overreacted. I should’ve communicated better about what was troubling me. I was dealing with a lot and kept most of it to myself. Also, I felt ignored and unappreciated. So when the “incident” happened, I reached my breaking point. Honestly, I thought me breaking up with you was what you wanted. When you said nothing when I walked away, that was my confirmation. Even though the circumstances were very tough, I cared about you and still do. Honestly, I still want to be with you. But I can understand if you don’t. I acknowledged what happened and had learned it. Sorry if I had hurt you.
Him: I see
Me: Yeah, so that’s all I have to say. Have a good evening.
Him: I need time
Me: Ok, I understand. Sorry for bothering you.
Him: You didn’t.

Of course I expected him to respond vaguely so it’s okay. I was hurt, but I can understand why he acted that way. I broke up with him but I don’t know how he truly feels.

But now after reaching out to him I feel pretty relieved. The fact that he responded vaguely and stated he needs time, I realized that he doesn’t want to be with me anymore and that was my “closure”. Honestly, I still want to be with him. Because what we had was amazing despite of our demise. The good literally outweighed the bad. I think it was just bad timing because he had a lot going on with school and other extracurricular activities that being with me was hard to do at the moment. I don’t want to continue what we left off, cause I want to start anew and leave the past behind. Maybe we’ll meet again someday, but for now I’ll move on and work on myself.