My letter to my ex before I start NC again

So I was suggested to write a letter to my ex because she has a boyfriend and I’m trying to just go into NC and let her realise that I am not hateful towards her because she will assume that something is wrong so I want her to still know I am the same guy but just need time so heres my letter. Please let me know if you think this is even a good idea to start off with and if so then what you think of the message. So ill just replace her name with idk ermm Arjun LOL my name because I’m lonely like that LOL

Hey Arjun I just want you to know that all these times I have ignored you it isn’t because I am hateful towards you or anything but more along the lines of me just having a lot of deadlines coming up a lot of changes I have intended to make as 2015 has hit so I have just been really busy and tried investing a lot of time in myself and just trying to get back on my two feet.

I did love you truly and wont ever forget how inspirational and motivational everything has been towards us and I know things started going downhill towards the end and I became really doubtful and just changed and became a different person trying to become an adult but it was tricky and I am glad I had your support through severe times like when I first opened up to someone for the first time which was you and you gave me all this support I never received before, all the fun times you gave me like our anniversary and your birthday and how last minute our plans worked out and we stayed up all night had shit sleep woke up early and still felt amazing just because we woke up next to one another.

All the times you picked me up and all the times you allowed me to be there for you. I never will regret meeting you and if I had a chance to avoid falling in love with you knowing that we would still have the same ending, I would still choose to be with you simply because of everything you taught me and everything you allowed me to realise about myself like how selfless I can be for someone I really care about. I always say that the way I cared for you is something that no one will ever be able to offer you and I don’t say that as a challenge but more because I want you to understand how much I loved you and how willingly I gave the relationship my all. Things changed towards the end and I am aware of that but that will never take away from the amazing 2 years we had and what a beautiful 2 years they were.

I hope you can achieve all the success you want and at the same time your visions and ambitions will always motivate me. I will just be immensely consumed by education this investment gym and improving on myself so I just will start talking to you as soon as I feel the stress from this change in my timetable and schedule alleviates but I cant promise how quick or long it will take.

I am extremely happy you found a new boyfriend and by the sounds of it, he sounds like he offers you amazing emotional support and I hope everything goes well for you and that you find love with him that you once had with me but I hope this time it stays.

Good luck Arjun 🙂