Overthinking…

I’m a little sick so please bare with me. I know it shouldn’t matter as much as to what an ex does but considering I’m in bed for the last couple of days I can’t keep overthinking and am wondering if I can get some peace of mind by gathering opinions. I really can’t distract myself being sick it seems..

So I(F-26) decided to go on a 60 day NC. I feel like I’m too insecure and clingy as a person so really want to get that out of my system before attempting any kind of contact. I have a psycholog set up for me next week and have had one of my best friends switch my passwords on social media (where I used to contact him (M-24) so I wouldn’t snoop or text in a moment of weakness. So far so good, I had a great distraction thanks to my job and kept seeing my friends up until I got fired last week. It was a real let down. But I still didn’t reach out. I guess my urge hasn’t been as high when busy which is something I’m missing nowadays. We’re now 35 days in NC and two days ago I watched a game on Twitch and saw he was online. To help myself I deleted him for now but in reaction to it I noticed that my Spotify followers list had gone down by one. It seemed he had unfollowed me in response to my action.
Was deleting him a bad call? Is he making a statement that he’s never coming around?

Some background info: The reason I picked 60 days is because we had a bad break-up. I had acted out of fear and eventually ended on snooping on his phone. He was vivid and kicked me out. He stated he could never trust me again and me being pissed he kicked me out stated that we would never work out and whatnot. He told my mom I broke up with him and that he was done as well(awtch). After that night he blocked me everywhere.
I was so hurt I did reach out a week later because that seemed far off a closed break-up. He kept his stance, I didn’t beg but did state loving him still. Being mad still he said he didn’t love me anymore but added that’s what he wished he felt but and he would continue surpressing his feelings.