Hopeless:Kept NC 53 days, finally wrote to ex, NO response 4 days

My situation still utterly and absolutely hopeless. Broke NC again 6 days ago, sent a very short email, even shorter than the previous one, didn’t mention anything about my coming to town in a few weeks (since he already knows that from my previous email). Kept it cheerful and brief. It’s been six days. No response from him. Which means that he hasn’t contacted me or reached out to me in any way at all since I last saw him 75 days ago. And even that meeting was at my initiation.
What else can I do but give up? It breaks my heart to think that, but there’s nothing I can do now but accept that I will never see him or hear from him again, that he doesn’t care at all about me, and doesn’t want to have anything to do with me, ever again. It hurts.
I will be in his town in two weeks. I will not contact him. I will be strong and remember what Kevin says – and what TravelBug says above – that I don’t need him in my life, and that I’m happy and living a fulfilled and complete life without him.

Friends, I’m leaving tomorrow to go back to his town for a week for an interview. I haven’t heard from him in response to my two previous emails asking if he’d like to meet while I’m there. I know now that I’ll never hear from him again, and that he doesn’t care for me. I was so hoping to see him this week. I feel shattered and defeated by his silence. But in a way the message he’s sending is loud and clear. He doesn’t want to see me, he doesnt want to hear from me, he doesn’t want to be in email contact with me.
It is so hard, it is really hard. I should be focusing on my interview and preparing for the tough week ahead but all I can do is sob my eyes out. I just really loved him, and really wanted to spend my life with him. I know now that he didn’t feel that way about me. He told me as much. He was honest with me, and after the break up, his behaviour towards me was correct and honourable: he never led me on, he didnt give me any mixed signals, he was clear that he didn’t like me the way I liked him and that’s why he broke up with me. What can I do, but accept and try to bear it as best I can, and hope that with time the pain will lessen?
It’s been seven months since we broke up. The pain is as strong today as it was right after the break up – even stronger, actually, because then I had hope, and was thinking he’d come back to me; now I know he never will.
I did almost two months of NC. I sent the friendly letter as Kevin advises us to do. I tried. It just hurts so much that despite all that trying, I still can’t get him back. It’s just not meant to be, and i know I have to move on, and I will move on, and I’m grateful to all of you for all your good wishes and advice. I wish I could be stronger than I am.

Dear friends, I just wanted to write an update in case any of you might be curious. I went back to the city where I used to live for a week – as per what i’ve written above – and the Big News is that my ex wrote to me, just before I was to arrive, the sweetest, nicest email!!!!! I can’t really believe he wrote, but he did, and he apologized for having been out of touch for so long, and also apologized that he wouldn;t be in town during my visit. He thanked me for the presents I’d given him before I’d left (two months ago) and also apologized – which was very important for me – for the long time it took for him to acknowledge it. I was so happy to hear from him and so grateful for all he wrote. My week long visit there was good, and i was genuinely happy to be there, and didn’t mind at all that he wasn’t there; in fact, I was glad he wasn’t, so that i could enjoy myself with my old friends. I had a wonderful time, and knowing that so many of you had wished me well, and were thinking of me, and sending me positive vibes, made a huge difference. Now I’m back in my new home, and my ex has just sent me a follow up email, asking how my trip went, and generally just being nice. I will respond in a few days. To be clear: I have no desire to “get him back”, and no plans of playing any games or anything like that. I’m just happy he wrote, because it had made me so miserable, the thought that he thought nothing of me, and didn’t even care enough to write to thank me. Now that he has done that, I feel at peace, and able to “move on”. But in many ways I have been “moving on” for weeks and months, and thanks to all your encouragement – special thanks to Travel Bug – I’ve been able to see, with clarity, why I should never even wish to be with him again. TravelBug, I don’t think you’re reading here any more, but if you are, I hope you’re doing well (I will write on your post as well), and I hope you know how grateful I am to you for all your wise words and kind thoughts. Pixie25, thanks to you too. I’m so grateful to all of you. And I want you to know that I’m happy, and well, and positively moving forward, with a new chapter of my new life. For all you sad heartbroken people out there: DONT try to “get your ex back”; it’s a losing game. You deserve better; we all do. If he/she wants you, let him come after you. Don’t chase anyone who has rejected you. Love should not be that complicated. And we are all better off alone, than running (or, worse, being with) after someone who doesn’t appreciate us.

Hi Ghost yes he really did write – twice !!! – a really nice, sweet, friendly email, in which he mainly apologized for not having been in touch for so long; and telling me how he is doing, and asking about me. I feel really happy that he wrote. I did respond to both emails. But with no intention at all of playing any games and trying to get him back. I don’t want him back; he doesn’t want me, and I don’t want to be with anyone who doesn’t want me. I’m happy he wrote, but only because we had been friends before we were together and I was devastated and the long silence. If he never writes again, I’ll be fine with that; if he does write again, I’ll be very happy with that too. But it needed two months of pain and suffering – and reading and posting here – for me to realize that I’m better off without him. We are all better off without our exes.
How are you doing, ghost?